Biyernes, Disyembre 25, 2009
Black Lagoon and cosplay 2010
So I got for xmas present from an Anonym (nyymi in finnish) 24 episodes of Black Lagoon, and for my unfortune the dvd-rom is broken and they won't play in my western dvd player ._.
So I have to wait until I get to my own place and try again, I really want to see theese after I listened to this opening track (above)!! And I guess that LaraCroft-like girls is a main character.
Thank You for sending me theese!
Then tomorrow starts making patterns to cosplay outfits -as I still dont have my sewing stuff.
To do list:
*load my travelcard (buscard)
*cleanup my appartment
*visit Joona
*take his lovely Mimmi cat <3
Maid Cafes
So I'm accepted to be one of the maids in a finnish event, I'm looking forward to it! (as it is held in June)So last night I studied this maid cafe concept - and got enthuastic myself!
In Maid cafe they seem to:
*welcome their client and point a place to sit
*they serve the food and "put love into it"
*play games
*do shows
*take pictures
As the finnish customer service in *most* restaurants and shops are equal to nothing, like you won't hear a "have a nice day", "thank yous" or experience even a greeting smile ( of course in smallers shops like in my job we do our best to be polite and bring a smile on the clients face)
So... I thought this kind of a cafe would be a nice twinkle in gray Helsinki :3
With a couple friend with who I talked last night about the idea we imagined it very far.
For example it could be based on youth power - to help the jobless situation of the yout atm.
I could sew the costumes, some other can bake, someone does the accounting...
Huwebes, Disyembre 24, 2009
Inglourious Basterds
So my Dad got this Tarantino-movie as a xmas present from my sister and we just watched it.5 stars!
I have never been a fan of Tarantino, as I feel his movies last for ever and are kind of Kaurismäki but flops - like Pulp fiction ( the only cool part in the movie is Uma and John dancing).
Facts that made me even watch this, to make this chewable for me:
* Women have a significant roles, Shosanna (which i think is a super beautiful name)
and Bridget
* Men who seem to be intelligent ( Raine, nazi leaders)
* ... in univorms
* kind of a warmovie
* never been a fan of Brad Pitt - but him, with an old american accent hell yeah!! <3 MarryMe<3
+ Music, they were just perfectly matched to feelings of the characters or they were attached so unobtrusively that it didn't make me "hmm I wonder what song this is ..hmm after this i'll download this.."
+ Plot, it was easy and plain but now Less was More
+ Humor wasn't based on vaginas and mothers
+ Costumes and makeup
+ Different languages
Next I plan to watch Where the wild things are, which we were planning to watch with Matt in ny but didn't and I still have a curiosity to see it and I'm a Cyborg but it's okay have seen it tons of times but... still love it
Okay so now I'm not THAT bad person as I atleast like one Tarantino movie? ;)
Heavenly Stars above
I got my first succesfull victory-rolls pinned on my head. They aren't so round and facing forward but I made them just with part of my hair :3
So we were with my mom and dad in Sweden last week for thanksgiving and service. But I don't have pictures yet as I have lost my camera cable, and my parents computer wont read my memorycard ._.
Lately I have been very productive in t-shirt printing as some of my sewing stuff are still at Naali's place and he is out from city.
So a Hitler shirt, I dont have any political oppinion about him (not interested about politics..) and it says in finnish "you wanna debate (?)"
Then a Yoko John- shirt where I printed LO and VE to sleeves.
Then it says "imagine" in reerhem - like if you wear a sweater over it it still will be visible ;P
I noticed suddenly that my bangs had over grown ALOT :DDD HAIR PEACE. THIS YOKO AND JOHN x)
More pictures of my victory-rolls :3 I think they are pretty, pity can't see girls doing their hair up like that more often, maybe it's because thei are HELVETE to make....
Okay, this are mainly camwhoring pictures of myself - but that kreator shirt.. It was a gift from my cousin apperantly he listens to the band but i got inroduced to it while I recreated the shirt.
It's not visible but I made a very loooooose halterneck top out of it - something sassy <3
My dad is currently napping (1:30pm) and my mom and sister are making their nails in the living room while wathing movies, Marley and Me.So I don't think theres any harm done if i'll enjoy myself on the computer.
Merry Xmas everybody!! n_______n xxx
Lunes, Disyembre 14, 2009
Pariterapiaa
thought I'll just coldly and automatically write what ever pops in my head to a letter.
one paper, one page.
I had to sketch it as I noticed it will be over 6 pages. Then I had feelings.
assuming he is interested to read every word written?
Does he understand what is it like to carry his box in -10C which isn't even bad - but the only thing I can think is what he thinks about me when I'm sending randomly greetings.
Missing you.
What is it to have christmas in Georgia, do they even have snow?
I e-mailed a couple new girls located in Japan, exciting! ^^ I need to mail Emsy Pemsy's package as soon the banks are on work again.
"would you marry me?"
"yes, but no helmets!"
one paper, one page.
I had to sketch it as I noticed it will be over 6 pages. Then I had feelings.
assuming he is interested to read every word written?
Does he understand what is it like to carry his box in -10C which isn't even bad - but the only thing I can think is what he thinks about me when I'm sending randomly greetings.
Missing you.
What is it to have christmas in Georgia, do they even have snow?
I e-mailed a couple new girls located in Japan, exciting! ^^ I need to mail Emsy Pemsy's package as soon the banks are on work again.
"would you marry me?"
"yes, but no helmets!"
Miyerkules, Disyembre 09, 2009
back in junior highschool?
Feeling something inside me what I saw in Aksu years ago.
Back then simply thought that kind of ignorance and coldness is just negative. Name it "learning and understanding".
This friday I'm going with Aleksi to ikea and have a pizza with reed. Probably my dad is going to fix the table and my home this weekend too. I have to make the presents ready that must be posted on monday.
With naali it's not going strong at all, silent and pocking each others to boiling points. Well what ever, guess in that age people just wait for eternal intervetion, don't talk but
Linggo, Disyembre 06, 2009
Hey there Delilah
Aleksi is my bestfriend - we were yesterday at Ofelia. Before going there we ate pastries in Ekberg and after ofelia we went to Wrong noodle bar <3
My happiness comes in unbelievable form and in weird ammounts. Mimmi (Joona's cat) on my lap.
Hands around somebody warm and touching your own nose with dreadlocks.
waking up at 4pm.
I like school.
And chocolate.
I want to send my U.S resident friends presents - but what's wrong with americans to receive presents .___. I have noted this in movies too!! "oh you shouldn't have..." WHYY FUUUCCCCKKK
Lucky I can send Emsy Pemsy.
I can't stop thinking what to send! I like it!
My happiness comes in unbelievable form and in weird ammounts. Mimmi (Joona's cat) on my lap.
Hands around somebody warm and touching your own nose with dreadlocks.
waking up at 4pm.
I like school.
And chocolate.
I want to send my U.S resident friends presents - but what's wrong with americans to receive presents .___. I have noted this in movies too!! "oh you shouldn't have..." WHYY FUUUCCCCKKK
Lucky I can send Emsy Pemsy.
I can't stop thinking what to send! I like it!
Miyerkules, Disyembre 02, 2009
Mou sukoshi mou sukoshi
yesterdays english test was ok I think. Hope so.
We are going to Sweden with my family in few weeks - like when I was a child.
I went for a coffee with Aleksi and wanted him to hint that I should push my energy to something useful, like studying japanese.
(and also russian, but couldn't find any book where i wouldn't have need a teacher ._.)
Then I met Eitsi at Kamppi et went for burgers with him. And for a one in William K.
Felt alive and thoughtful.
Ah I miss New York.
I came home and felt like crying, I wanted to shake some words from his mouth.
When you are harming yourself and doing it again and again there must be something wrong neeh?
We are going to Sweden with my family in few weeks - like when I was a child.
I went for a coffee with Aleksi and wanted him to hint that I should push my energy to something useful, like studying japanese.
(and also russian, but couldn't find any book where i wouldn't have need a teacher ._.)
Then I met Eitsi at Kamppi et went for burgers with him. And for a one in William K.
Felt alive and thoughtful.
Ah I miss New York.
I came home and felt like crying, I wanted to shake some words from his mouth.
When you are harming yourself and doing it again and again there must be something wrong neeh?
Sabado, Nobyembre 28, 2009
women's magazine
now i'm not jealous to people anymore who have that one and only friend circle.
I have one where people wont walk a mile - they'll take the taxi.
One which has a guy carrying his xbox and we walk over puddles and try to talk.
People who bath in brand perfumes
Then people who smell like candy cause they have long baths in candlelight
I have one where people wont walk a mile - they'll take the taxi.
One which has a guy carrying his xbox and we walk over puddles and try to talk.
People who bath in brand perfumes
Then people who smell like candy cause they have long baths in candlelight
Biyernes, Nobyembre 27, 2009
121 - Ja miten kävikään
I placed another 1,6 to my ear resulting a 4.1mm tinymous n__n
I ate lunch with Aleksi it was nice to see him for a long time!
Yesterday evening I spent in secco Wonders of Wasteland, made a bracelet and a couple of keychains.
Then I head to Espoo.
Seeing him forcing a 10mm thru his ear, ment me something to witness it.
Bathing and talking. That's what teens are supposed to do. Humbla.
It's boring it's for people maybe visiting me - the furnitures around my house not so practically
Decided to rumble my appartment around, exactly as I wish it to be
Working place to a corner and bed near kitchen.
Breakfast in bed, imagination going wild in a corner.
Also I got fascinated of chiles and tomatoes, growing things in general so I'm going to fix something for them :3
I ate lunch with Aleksi it was nice to see him for a long time!
Yesterday evening I spent in secco Wonders of Wasteland, made a bracelet and a couple of keychains.
Then I head to Espoo.
Seeing him forcing a 10mm thru his ear, ment me something to witness it.
Bathing and talking. That's what teens are supposed to do. Humbla.
It's boring it's for people maybe visiting me - the furnitures around my house not so practically
Decided to rumble my appartment around, exactly as I wish it to be
Working place to a corner and bed near kitchen.
Breakfast in bed, imagination going wild in a corner.
Also I got fascinated of chiles and tomatoes, growing things in general so I'm going to fix something for them :3
Lunes, Nobyembre 23, 2009
HEY UNCLE SAM AND NISHIMURA!
I decided that, depending of I can have any company - I'll go to japan, if not I'll go to New York.
Or dunno really it depends of the money situation but now .. i'll save it and try to make it on spring or summer!
Or dunno really it depends of the money situation but now .. i'll save it and try to make it on spring or summer!
Linggo, Nobyembre 22, 2009
Innoncence Taken
It's again the end of a school period - feels more confident than the last one .. more and more
I dropped spanish and took a japanese course to the 4th period it's going to be a nice end for my high school career I think :3
This weekend I have been working and being in Espoo, Kivenlahti at Eitsi's and Mimmi's place.
4-days-in-row
I needed, yearned for this
Me in a winter coat, in a cold taking a public transportation to somewhere new like every fall but promissing myself this will be different.
Enjoying to just sit and watch people
to hold the most funniest tiny cat ever met.
Then there are boys that you can't say 'no' to.
The minty light and not having much on but still smiling and staring each others just felt right and the best ever in the world every touch trembels on my skin and all I really want is his smile and his voice.
Flattering words.
Couldn't say anything but let my smile tell you what I think.
And Sanna is so awesome.
I dropped spanish and took a japanese course to the 4th period it's going to be a nice end for my high school career I think :3
This weekend I have been working and being in Espoo, Kivenlahti at Eitsi's and Mimmi's place.
4-days-in-row
I needed, yearned for this
Me in a winter coat, in a cold taking a public transportation to somewhere new like every fall but promissing myself this will be different.
Enjoying to just sit and watch people
to hold the most funniest tiny cat ever met.
Then there are boys that you can't say 'no' to.
The minty light and not having much on but still smiling and staring each others just felt right and the best ever in the world every touch trembels on my skin and all I really want is his smile and his voice.
Flattering words.
Couldn't say anything but let my smile tell you what I think.
And Sanna is so awesome.
Huwebes, Nobyembre 19, 2009
Be Your Girl
Lately it has felt okay to be into anime and cosplay again :3
Yesterday I met one anonym guy in Kamppi and we went to Kaisla for a couple.
First I thought Kaisla is place for dead-old-trees but then I understood why he liked to go there, I like it too!
I think it's cool to meet guys that are so stylish and unique - speaking straight and open.
Read the Game, have black and white shoes.
Showing magic tricks.
Had fun especially after suffering for weeks thinking to hang out with some one who is in the same age as me.
And it was so nostalgic to be in Kamppi "late" and being like "I walk you, NO I WALK YOU... to your bus" and the feeling that you are still excited to meet someone!!
Today I'm going to meet his cat as he lives near to my parents and probably sleep tonight with Didi<3
Yesterday I met one anonym guy in Kamppi and we went to Kaisla for a couple.
First I thought Kaisla is place for dead-old-trees but then I understood why he liked to go there, I like it too!
I think it's cool to meet guys that are so stylish and unique - speaking straight and open.
Read the Game, have black and white shoes.
Showing magic tricks.
Had fun especially after suffering for weeks thinking to hang out with some one who is in the same age as me.
And it was so nostalgic to be in Kamppi "late" and being like "I walk you, NO I WALK YOU... to your bus" and the feeling that you are still excited to meet someone!!
Today I'm going to meet his cat as he lives near to my parents and probably sleep tonight with Didi<3
Lunes, Nobyembre 16, 2009
Error or nostalgia
As people that with who I was more contact in the age of 15 - are coming back
as are my past time hobbies - jpop and cosplay.
I'm going to meet Eitsi this week, and do tons of home work - also to do work for my cosplayoutfits
Yeah I'm going to Bakacon and desucon :3 in Yoko Littner's and Kasane Teto's outfit <3
as are my past time hobbies - jpop and cosplay.
I'm going to meet Eitsi this week, and do tons of home work - also to do work for my cosplayoutfits
Yeah I'm going to Bakacon and desucon :3 in Yoko Littner's and Kasane Teto's outfit <3
Huwebes, Nobyembre 12, 2009
It won't kill you
There has been recently dozens of situations where I have had to eat my words.
"I never will... ", "it will be okay for me if..."
No, yes, no, yes - and learn it in a ugly situations.
Lastest: I thought that it won't ever be a problem that I would date a person whose style difference alot from mine. I'm not political, religious and I don't care other peoples using what ever they are using as long as they don't push me to do it.
There's always guys, usually in bars, that can up to me and flatter my hair be suprised about my piercings - in a positive way. But then out the bar they won't handle my looks.
I'm jealous of my workmates relationships, they like red and black, shoes or they have a dog and guinnea pigs!
I or who ever I'm dating have one thing in common - internetZ.
Maybe it's my thing but - pfffffff. It's been a while when I listen to the same music with someone that we both like ( expect my workbebes<3), or had someone talk about art, ferrets or how cool could it be to eat pizza in the middle of the night at the play-grounds' buildings roof?
Or just run crazy only in sweat pants?
I miss people that can see underneath and who aren't superficial.
Crap I just seem to be the reason why I don't have them around me anymore.
Atleast when I come to work that couple shifts I work in a month - it makes me remember how cool especially the grrrllls are, the have their own oppinons and stick to them no one seems to be on their way.
And I'm lousy -super lousy - compared to them.
I want to be feisty too!
I want to feel also 'it LOVEE DESU' what my mind lacks - but I know it's not there where I want it to be.
And the fear that it's history or it's is some where in past "In my youth".
Even our career conselour went " ihihihihi you could get married in 2 years"
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
OR OKAY I want to get married, but hell.
If it means that I'll live in a warm place with someone super-nice who likes chocolate and animals - And who accepts me like this. Maybe likes to even try fingerpaints.
And doesn't replace sex with porn.
ps. kuva ois kiva
"I never will... ", "it will be okay for me if..."
No, yes, no, yes - and learn it in a ugly situations.
Lastest: I thought that it won't ever be a problem that I would date a person whose style difference alot from mine. I'm not political, religious and I don't care other peoples using what ever they are using as long as they don't push me to do it.
There's always guys, usually in bars, that can up to me and flatter my hair be suprised about my piercings - in a positive way. But then out the bar they won't handle my looks.
I'm jealous of my workmates relationships, they like red and black, shoes or they have a dog and guinnea pigs!
I or who ever I'm dating have one thing in common - internetZ.
Maybe it's my thing but - pfffffff. It's been a while when I listen to the same music with someone that we both like ( expect my workbebes<3), or had someone talk about art, ferrets or how cool could it be to eat pizza in the middle of the night at the play-grounds' buildings roof?
Or just run crazy only in sweat pants?
I miss people that can see underneath and who aren't superficial.
Crap I just seem to be the reason why I don't have them around me anymore.
Atleast when I come to work that couple shifts I work in a month - it makes me remember how cool especially the grrrllls are, the have their own oppinons and stick to them no one seems to be on their way.
And I'm lousy -super lousy - compared to them.
I want to be feisty too!
I want to feel also 'it LOVEE DESU' what my mind lacks - but I know it's not there where I want it to be.
And the fear that it's history or it's is some where in past "In my youth".
Even our career conselour went " ihihihihi you could get married in 2 years"
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
OR OKAY I want to get married, but hell.
If it means that I'll live in a warm place with someone super-nice who likes chocolate and animals - And who accepts me like this. Maybe likes to even try fingerpaints.
And doesn't replace sex with porn.
ps. kuva ois kiva
Miyerkules, Nobyembre 11, 2009
dancing with myself
She's cute she's cute...... x 30 000 001
omg.. She looks like an alive dollmore-doll!! Can't get over it!
And she spoke, to me, spoke!!!
Cutest voice ever.
Yesterday we got our univorms - cutest univorms ever!<3 .. and ribbons!!
Also I asked if Antti want to come with me to an extended weekend to Berlin.
Have a good feeling about this :3 I want to travel with him even though, the places where I want to sit and drink hot coco aren't his type - but you can always try something new right? ^^
Today some work, tomorrow to Espoo central and some coffee with Waily.
Weekend work and the Golden Spirit fallshow ^^
I have a feeling everything is okay again.
Mania-phases + flow+ love+ sugar = happiest Neko ever!
omg.. She looks like an alive dollmore-doll!! Can't get over it!
And she spoke, to me, spoke!!!
Cutest voice ever.
Yesterday we got our univorms - cutest univorms ever!<3 .. and ribbons!!
Also I asked if Antti want to come with me to an extended weekend to Berlin.
Have a good feeling about this :3 I want to travel with him even though, the places where I want to sit and drink hot coco aren't his type - but you can always try something new right? ^^
Today some work, tomorrow to Espoo central and some coffee with Waily.
Weekend work and the Golden Spirit fallshow ^^
I have a feeling everything is okay again.
Mania-phases + flow+ love+ sugar = happiest Neko ever!
Lunes, Nobyembre 09, 2009
Looked good from here
I think she was right, others want only the sex and only dating with all that relationshipdramas( cough CRAP cough) from the differents sexs
But I think it's okay, it's not wrong.
I have a panic to get this Matt's peresent done.
Reaaaaallllly I'm into waiting some artdudes coming to Finland - even it's not official even that we are ever going to see but dreaming and planning is cool neeh?
Also I mailed one tattoo artist <3
But I think it's okay, it's not wrong.
I have a panic to get this Matt's peresent done.
Reaaaaallllly I'm into waiting some artdudes coming to Finland - even it's not official even that we are ever going to see but dreaming and planning is cool neeh?
Also I mailed one tattoo artist <3
Martes, Nobyembre 03, 2009
oh-my bi-polar bears
I counted yesterday how much I have to earn in one month to get the money together.
2010 is only for tiny trips, If I could really make it to Atlanta in few months?
So whiny feeling you wouldn't understand!!
I miss New York! GD! It's cold and boring here. People are on my way when I get out of the metro, people are moody, nothing suprising in shops (expect in cybershop<3)
It doesn't make me happy to go to fancy departmentstores (yeah if you can compare stockmann to bloomingdales, not really, but trying hard)
Okay I love cooking and cheerleading, but there will be a lack of demoparties too this winter...
(which is actually good so I concentrate to school, but ..*whine whine*)
I believe suffering badly from somekind of maanis-depressive condition but as long I think so, I don't - cause that kind of people might not notice it by themselves.
Now I'm just badly in to gather some money and into baking cupcakes - and cheerleading
2010 is only for tiny trips, If I could really make it to Atlanta in few months?
So whiny feeling you wouldn't understand!!
I miss New York! GD! It's cold and boring here. People are on my way when I get out of the metro, people are moody, nothing suprising in shops (expect in cybershop<3)
It doesn't make me happy to go to fancy departmentstores (yeah if you can compare stockmann to bloomingdales, not really, but trying hard)
Okay I love cooking and cheerleading, but there will be a lack of demoparties too this winter...
(which is actually good so I concentrate to school, but ..*whine whine*)
I believe suffering badly from somekind of maanis-depressive condition but as long I think so, I don't - cause that kind of people might not notice it by themselves.
Now I'm just badly in to gather some money and into baking cupcakes - and cheerleading
Martes, Oktubre 27, 2009
Cupcakes - NOT
When I learned from Aleksi that it's always 50% FUN 50% TOTAL ULTIMATE SHIEE
.. it really is true
after a week being just hanging out and enjoying myself
I dunno what to do to my relationships
My ferret is sick and i can't afford to take her to the vet until next week
Got 'F' from math - which is super bad cause it's allowed to have only one 'F' in your paper
It feels like I'm not qualifed to live my own life right
so this weekend it's all about practising math
.. it really is true
after a week being just hanging out and enjoying myself
I dunno what to do to my relationships
My ferret is sick and i can't afford to take her to the vet until next week
Got 'F' from math - which is super bad cause it's allowed to have only one 'F' in your paper
It feels like I'm not qualifed to live my own life right
so this weekend it's all about practising math
Sabado, Oktubre 24, 2009
I miss you
This is almost too ridiculous how I just fell in love into New York. Picture entry later.
I know there is like japan-fanatics, or people who decorate their homes with Africa inspired interior.
New York is a city.. but still. I'll hang the New York Kendo textile ang the eggo waffle pack on my wall, I already did put Trixie's toy next to Shawns flag patch... I miss it so much, the walking and the noise.
I really get too easy found of things.
Now I'm alt-party. I wont say anything yet about this year's party...
I know there is like japan-fanatics, or people who decorate their homes with Africa inspired interior.
New York is a city.. but still. I'll hang the New York Kendo textile ang the eggo waffle pack on my wall, I already did put Trixie's toy next to Shawns flag patch... I miss it so much, the walking and the noise.
I really get too easy found of things.
Now I'm alt-party. I wont say anything yet about this year's party...
Linggo, Oktubre 18, 2009
That's what you get from waking up in NY
I really should sum up my New York story when I have finnished my journey.
I'm getting tired of shopping - okay my money is out anyway.
But, I met yesterday so welcoming people that I haven't ever felt like that way!
Then waking up next to Trixie purring.
I want to come back here surely, usually you go :"oh i love the architechture and nature of *some country*" .. I do with New York but also I love the people in here
Today there was a pirate in the subway, yesterday a crime fighter, and lots of people being so nice and poooh.. I should start kendo.
I'm getting tired of shopping - okay my money is out anyway.
But, I met yesterday so welcoming people that I haven't ever felt like that way!
Then waking up next to Trixie purring.
I want to come back here surely, usually you go :"oh i love the architechture and nature of *some country*" .. I do with New York but also I love the people in here
Today there was a pirate in the subway, yesterday a crime fighter, and lots of people being so nice and poooh.. I should start kendo.
Miyerkules, Oktubre 14, 2009
Why oh Why, the most beautiful...
Jeah I'm surviving New York - and it's more easy than i thought!
(Though I got lost into Central park and to inside Century 21 once...)
I have met Matt, had some awesome food, shopping, and I should still go see some museums..
Yesterday when I spent the whole crazy day with Matt - sounds cheezy but I want to live here!
He showed me so awesome stuff here that this must be my place, walking kilometers with my combat boots from manhattan to brooklyn felt so normal!
Matt has an awesome appartment and the most coolest cat, Trixie, ever! She gave me a play mouse so I wont forget her! I so have to send something to them when I come back to Finland!!
I surely have been borned to do that!
I loved to sit in the train while wathing the views of Brooklyn!
Love this city!
New York inspires me, New York is enpowering!
Tomorrow I'll go to the zoo and buy some candy
Thursday shopping
Friday Comic Con
Saturday shopping
Sunday museum
Monday shopping/museum
Tuesday the Statue of liberty, IHOP aka THE LAST SUPPER!
Wednesday packing and going away
(Though I got lost into Central park and to inside Century 21 once...)
I have met Matt, had some awesome food, shopping, and I should still go see some museums..
Yesterday when I spent the whole crazy day with Matt - sounds cheezy but I want to live here!
He showed me so awesome stuff here that this must be my place, walking kilometers with my combat boots from manhattan to brooklyn felt so normal!
Matt has an awesome appartment and the most coolest cat, Trixie, ever! She gave me a play mouse so I wont forget her! I so have to send something to them when I come back to Finland!!
I surely have been borned to do that!
I loved to sit in the train while wathing the views of Brooklyn!
Love this city!
New York inspires me, New York is enpowering!
Tomorrow I'll go to the zoo and buy some candy
Thursday shopping
Friday Comic Con
Saturday shopping
Sunday museum
Monday shopping/museum
Tuesday the Statue of liberty, IHOP aka THE LAST SUPPER!
Wednesday packing and going away
Biyernes, Oktubre 09, 2009
BIG APPLE
today is the big day
i'm going to fly across the atlantic and spend som time of my own
I'm holdin naali's glasses, i have somthng towards glasses they are magical!
this next week will be
i'm going to fly across the atlantic and spend som time of my own
I'm holdin naali's glasses, i have somthng towards glasses they are magical!
this next week will be
Martes, Oktubre 06, 2009
Sober by Pink
I don't wanna be that girl
organizing priorities, worth and sky high
Just wait I always bite back
yesterday we learned the new dance <3
organizing priorities, worth and sky high
Just wait I always bite back
yesterday we learned the new dance <3
Sabado, Oktubre 03, 2009
Say Thank You
kulissi
yesterday I found myself questioning my attitude towards beauty standards, as they are getting slowly different when starting to hanging out with older people. Pressures neh?
I could stop eating.
I started to use lipstick.
I brush my hair everyday - though I still like it super messy.
But I wouldn't (or can't) use any perfumes as the only one acceptable costs 66€ ( Viktor & Rolf - flower bomb)
I like tattoos, I want to fill myself with cool pictures, colours colours, but then - I let one guy to get on my way with ink.... like what happened with my ideal that no man comes on my way... mourh..
For real, if some guy wont love me some day cause of my tattoos - that will be the type of superficial thing I don't want to deal with.
How about if there's no guys that can see underneath my skin?
Kiasma's 5th floor I want to go there with .. take pictures, lie on the floor
Yesterday I phoned him again, I do every time when I'm scared or feel sad, insecure.
Dunno.
Currently I'm a mess.
Luckily I'll have time to sort my braintubes in NYC.
Everythng is cool as long I'm getting thinner
yesterday I found myself questioning my attitude towards beauty standards, as they are getting slowly different when starting to hanging out with older people. Pressures neh?
I could stop eating.
I started to use lipstick.
I brush my hair everyday - though I still like it super messy.
But I wouldn't (or can't) use any perfumes as the only one acceptable costs 66€ ( Viktor & Rolf - flower bomb)
I like tattoos, I want to fill myself with cool pictures, colours colours, but then - I let one guy to get on my way with ink.... like what happened with my ideal that no man comes on my way... mourh..
For real, if some guy wont love me some day cause of my tattoos - that will be the type of superficial thing I don't want to deal with.
How about if there's no guys that can see underneath my skin?
Kiasma's 5th floor I want to go there with .. take pictures, lie on the floor
Yesterday I phoned him again, I do every time when I'm scared or feel sad, insecure.
Dunno.
Currently I'm a mess.
Luckily I'll have time to sort my braintubes in NYC.
Everythng is cool as long I'm getting thinner
Miyerkules, Setyembre 30, 2009
watching Tsuji chan's life
I wish I would have a boyfirend
I wish someone would like me exactly in the way I am.
You don't have to like ribbons but dont judge the one in my head, kudasai.
I wish someone would like me exactly in the way I am.
You don't have to like ribbons but dont judge the one in my head, kudasai.
Martes, Setyembre 29, 2009
Creep
Today I heard Brooklyn would be my thing.
Coffee doesn't make me feel good but I like the taste.
I was guessing today what to wear on Thursday and Friday - and for my own bad I was planning them thru people whom I'm going with... That's bad and sad...
In other words it's (trying to) pleasing (them) and hiding myself.
Will I have the same phase with older friends that I had with my parents - To not give a #"/!)?# what they think or say?
Coffee doesn't make me feel good but I like the taste.
I was guessing today what to wear on Thursday and Friday - and for my own bad I was planning them thru people whom I'm going with... That's bad and sad...
In other words it's (trying to) pleasing (them) and hiding myself.
Will I have the same phase with older friends that I had with my parents - To not give a #"/!)?# what they think or say?
Lunes, Setyembre 28, 2009
101 - doubt?
There hasn't been much situations where I have been "should I, or shouldn't I?" cause I usually just let it go.
Now. It's a message, thru facebook for God's sake why does this feel so wrong? It's just a message thru TEH FACEBOOK. Ok. I'll send it.
Today I'm going to clean at Naali's place - okay it's already a bad sign cause everytime I make something quite suprising for someone something goes super wrong at the same time.
Last time was when I went back to cheerleading. Then he got issues.
oooh... atleast I hope I won't regret this. I'm trying to be a nice person!!
Now. It's a message, thru facebook for God's sake why does this feel so wrong? It's just a message thru TEH FACEBOOK. Ok. I'll send it.
Today I'm going to clean at Naali's place - okay it's already a bad sign cause everytime I make something quite suprising for someone something goes super wrong at the same time.
Last time was when I went back to cheerleading. Then he got issues.
oooh... atleast I hope I won't regret this. I'm trying to be a nice person!!
100
At Saturday I went to a SideShow together with Aleksi, Tiina, Joni, Netta, Jussi, Velmu, Anna, Antti and Noora (?) It was fun and shoking, pictures maybe later.
I was dressed up as a schoolgirl and first time ever took a taxi by myself to Naali. There he was sleeping, then we ate sandwiches and went to sleep.
Next day, Sunday, we slept until we woke up and then went to the Central eat at Morrinsosn (!BIG BURGERS!!!), have some dessert at memphis (!!) and watch the movie District 9. ^^
Next Thursday we are going to see the circus with Velikani and maybe Tiia :3
Then at Friday we are going out to eat with Liisa. *omgomg whattowearsoiwoldntlooklikeaemobrat*
.. and I should do math and read this week. And finish all my art works..
I'm really out of money and need to budjet.
I was dressed up as a schoolgirl and first time ever took a taxi by myself to Naali. There he was sleeping, then we ate sandwiches and went to sleep.
Next day, Sunday, we slept until we woke up and then went to the Central eat at Morrinsosn (!BIG BURGERS!!!), have some dessert at memphis (!!) and watch the movie District 9. ^^
Next Thursday we are going to see the circus with Velikani and maybe Tiia :3
Then at Friday we are going out to eat with Liisa. *omgomg whattowearsoiwoldntlooklikeaemobrat*
.. and I should do math and read this week. And finish all my art works..
I'm really out of money and need to budjet.
Biyernes, Setyembre 25, 2009
I'm Amy Winehouse
today.
Yesterday the stuff of Bruuveri didn't ask my id:s - so surely because Antti pickme up from the door.
Though your 18 they have a right to remove you from there cause it's K-20.
Drunk. We took a taxi.
eraser, food and salkkarit - the finnish soap opera.
I think there should be made a realtv-show of demoscene people. Surely interesting.
Yesterday the stuff of Bruuveri didn't ask my id:s - so surely because Antti pickme up from the door.
Though your 18 they have a right to remove you from there cause it's K-20.
Drunk. We took a taxi.
eraser, food and salkkarit - the finnish soap opera.
I think there should be made a realtv-show of demoscene people. Surely interesting.
Miyerkules, Setyembre 23, 2009
The chords and the beats what if what if
It smells like a well groomed man in here always, it smells like sleeping
Spent my last summer nights in this very same bed giggling.
He is a gentleman, chops vegetables to my plate. Responses to hugs middle of the night.
I don't want to last week to repeat itself but there is a possibility. DO NOT WANT.
jealousy
Theres nothing bad to have what you want, right? As long it feels good.
I got a Laudatur from psychology, I'm super happy.
Sex and Health education didn't go so smooth, let me blame the previous depressive week.
Spent my last summer nights in this very same bed giggling.
He is a gentleman, chops vegetables to my plate. Responses to hugs middle of the night.
I don't want to last week to repeat itself but there is a possibility. DO NOT WANT.
jealousy
Theres nothing bad to have what you want, right? As long it feels good.
I got a Laudatur from psychology, I'm super happy.
Sex and Health education didn't go so smooth, let me blame the previous depressive week.
Linggo, Setyembre 20, 2009
Everything is cool as long I'm getting thinner
huh, just came back from Stream(demo)party, Tampere, here to Antti's please ( i just twisted it to Anakin, and as we made some lasagne, Koki- like Kokki cook, Koki Anakin - you dont understand but i'm giggling to it anyway)
for the very first time i didn't feel like a teenager nor to have the right to act like one - anymore
Even I have and share the image demoparties are wild, careless, fun parties that welcome you exactly as you are - I realize that they contain a massive amount of drama and thinking about correct behaving.
I was drunk. Wanted to be and I think it's fun. And for real - people who think my issues, could stick on their own ones!
Sauna, couches, out side air, compos, sleeping - people <3
At some point it really was going wrong and then there was this straight from a moviescene and Tazze saves me. Tazze talks to me before I pass out to the shower and im more wise now I guess.
I know more.
(Yeah, at demoparties you either learn the super good or super bad sides)
At saturday we went to the central with 8 guys, naali, kani, jugi and... to eat at te American Dinner it's now my new favorite place!! ^^ food was jummy<3
More sauna and Kakka in my Hello Kitty panties :DD
We didnt speak much but I think things between us are now better, it's the sleeping charging rainbow batteries
Damn I dont remember much of sat-sun night
The suprising thing was stealing, someone stole my bag of alcohol which had also my friends stuff, ate my oreo cakesteres and took my pink car
What I learned : "It's not me, it's you" and "when there is a train, you wont ever know if it was the last one so hop on"
for the very first time i didn't feel like a teenager nor to have the right to act like one - anymore
Even I have and share the image demoparties are wild, careless, fun parties that welcome you exactly as you are - I realize that they contain a massive amount of drama and thinking about correct behaving.
I was drunk. Wanted to be and I think it's fun. And for real - people who think my issues, could stick on their own ones!
Sauna, couches, out side air, compos, sleeping - people <3
At some point it really was going wrong and then there was this straight from a moviescene and Tazze saves me. Tazze talks to me before I pass out to the shower and im more wise now I guess.
I know more.
(Yeah, at demoparties you either learn the super good or super bad sides)
At saturday we went to the central with 8 guys, naali, kani, jugi and... to eat at te American Dinner it's now my new favorite place!! ^^ food was jummy<3
More sauna and Kakka in my Hello Kitty panties :DD
We didnt speak much but I think things between us are now better, it's the sleeping charging rainbow batteries
Damn I dont remember much of sat-sun night
The suprising thing was stealing, someone stole my bag of alcohol which had also my friends stuff, ate my oreo cakesteres and took my pink car
What I learned : "It's not me, it's you" and "when there is a train, you wont ever know if it was the last one so hop on"
Huwebes, Setyembre 17, 2009
Pages without sound
Beltbuckles clicking, he was putting his pants on
- "where are you going" I asked though knew he was going to take a smoke.
4am -in which point did I even check the time?
He came back, bringing the coldness of fall and the smell of my dad to the bed.
He had thought about the thing.
I was angry and sad - lack of sleep, hunger or being disappointed ?
Monday you can fall apart
Tuesday, Wednesday break my heart
Oh, Thursday doesn't even start
Messed up, trying to cover in make-up my face which was breaking to cry in any moment then some one says that I'm "kawaii gyaruu" (cute lady).
Shit. Never felt like that and I knew the feeling will last for a long time if I wont speak up my mind - so I did.
And I'm better now, stuck with the feeling for weeks sounds so miserable, I don't think it's necessary. some do it. If someone doesn't want you, deal with it.
I'm going tonight to Tampere, the party starts tomorrow - random.
I just want to do this no matter how stupid this will look like.
The feeling I can furniture my home as I want, dress up, take piercings and tattoos as I want are the priviledges of being single.
Still I want a bed where a babycat, artic fox and a rabbit called Niilo sleep.
- "where are you going" I asked though knew he was going to take a smoke.
4am -in which point did I even check the time?
He came back, bringing the coldness of fall and the smell of my dad to the bed.
He had thought about the thing.
I was angry and sad - lack of sleep, hunger or being disappointed ?
Monday you can fall apart
Tuesday, Wednesday break my heart
Oh, Thursday doesn't even start
Messed up, trying to cover in make-up my face which was breaking to cry in any moment then some one says that I'm "kawaii gyaruu" (cute lady).
Shit. Never felt like that and I knew the feeling will last for a long time if I wont speak up my mind - so I did.
And I'm better now, stuck with the feeling for weeks sounds so miserable, I don't think it's necessary. some do it. If someone doesn't want you, deal with it.
I'm going tonight to Tampere, the party starts tomorrow - random.
I just want to do this no matter how stupid this will look like.
The feeling I can furniture my home as I want, dress up, take piercings and tattoos as I want are the priviledges of being single.
Still I want a bed where a babycat, artic fox and a rabbit called Niilo sleep.
Sabado, Setyembre 05, 2009
wnb Tila Tequila
so... I have naturally a deep black hair, so before I get it pink or red I bleach it !
ignore the black-game shirt... plz
ignore the black-game shirt... plz
whos' your daddy
Just came from work and dyeing my hair to be cotton candy pink :P See what happends...
Below a picture from the cutest sleeper ever, Didi<3
Above, I'm not the only one in this family who likes Hello Kitty. When I visited my parents place my mom had customized the mirror with Hello Kitty stickers :D 
This is my common view while staying at Naali's place. His DVDs, his neck in a collared shirt and *datdatdtadtatdtatwindowsdatadatdatdaadadad*
This week hasn't been so different, school, studying to finals and sleeping at Kulosaari.
Though we went to Koto ( in Kalevankatu) with Sini and this is what we ate <3
We have cooked alot begetables and some very exotic stuff with Naali :P
Like in this one: it's chicken in coconut flakes and we made some bananarice with it ^____^<3
Currently, when I have had money - I spent it to eating and spoiling myself with imported treats ( And yes I already changed some dollars<3 cute money btw!)
I don't like much the original pockys but wanted to try theese ones! Haven't opened them yet, I'll wait Naali to come back :3
I bought some cup noodles, though this is more "plate"noodle, it was so funny and gigantic I had to take couple of them :DD
Instant miso they taste *pk*
Then i had to try the take-away sushi in the railway station which Tazze told me being ok - it was <3 Yes I *LOVE* Inaris, and anything with avocado - like in this avocado rolls
Below a picture from the cutest sleeper ever, Didi<3
Above, I'm not the only one in this family who likes Hello Kitty. When I visited my parents place my mom had customized the mirror with Hello Kitty stickers :D 
This is my common view while staying at Naali's place. His DVDs, his neck in a collared shirt and *datdatdtadtatdtatwindowsdatadatdatdaadadad*
This week hasn't been so different, school, studying to finals and sleeping at Kulosaari.
Though we went to Koto ( in Kalevankatu) with Sini and this is what we ate <3
We have cooked alot begetables and some very exotic stuff with Naali :P
Like in this one: it's chicken in coconut flakes and we made some bananarice with it ^____^<3
Currently, when I have had money - I spent it to eating and spoiling myself with imported treats ( And yes I already changed some dollars<3 cute money btw!)I don't like much the original pockys but wanted to try theese ones! Haven't opened them yet, I'll wait Naali to come back :3
I bought some cup noodles, though this is more "plate"noodle, it was so funny and gigantic I had to take couple of them :DD
Instant miso they taste *pk*
Then i had to try the take-away sushi in the railway station which Tazze told me being ok - it was <3 Yes I *LOVE* Inaris, and anything with avocado - like in this avocado rolls
Biyernes, Setyembre 04, 2009
MADE
Naali is a nice person he smells good.
I'm so impatient - don't want to wait until Streamparty, I know what I want (and that's not childish)
I like to come here in Kulosaari cause it smells always like someone has just come out from shower.
The bed smells like cottoncandy and puppies.
Now he is away to Parikkala for this weekend.
feels like there should be tons of things done
I pack part of my stuff
go to work
after work to my parents home
in the mornin to my own home and then to practice.
I got interested about dirtbiking but guess already a motor will be out of my budget .. :DD
I love my life.
I'm so impatient - don't want to wait until Streamparty, I know what I want (and that's not childish)
I like to come here in Kulosaari cause it smells always like someone has just come out from shower.
The bed smells like cottoncandy and puppies.
Now he is away to Parikkala for this weekend.
feels like there should be tons of things done
I pack part of my stuff
go to work
after work to my parents home
in the mornin to my own home and then to practice.
I got interested about dirtbiking but guess already a motor will be out of my budget .. :DD
I love my life.
Huwebes, Setyembre 03, 2009
The Kamikaze girl
When I see people not thinking their kittens are cute anymore when they have grown up, it's kinda melancholic. I just want to cuddle and him to pet me.
I have grown and I still want that same attention than month (or years) ago.
Time changes so fast.. and my opinions too
We went for sushi and felt something was wrong with her as we didn't giggle in the same way,
try on weird cloths or fancy anything. Was it the weather? She has grown so much and I have left behind. Good for her, she is going to take an adventure - I'm going to continue my things here.
It felt like Sex and the city scene.
I also regret not going to the HC gig yesterday - Aleksi had bought as earplugs, and was truly disappointed. He sends me mail where he says things like: "well see you when you have a blue hair"
And I feel my life is boring as no one really understands things like that, adult people especially.
I think Aleksi is immature and shit like that -but guess it's a benefit.
Guess when I have been hanging out here I have tried to be so.. mature - but after watching tv for one evening I miss to be a impulsive and random kid again cause I'm still a teeeeeeeeen though.
Like last weekend.
But that was too Sex in the City too :D
Never apologize for being random, that's what makes you so awesome. ♥
ah what to do.
I have grown and I still want that same attention than month (or years) ago.
Time changes so fast.. and my opinions too
We went for sushi and felt something was wrong with her as we didn't giggle in the same way,
try on weird cloths or fancy anything. Was it the weather? She has grown so much and I have left behind. Good for her, she is going to take an adventure - I'm going to continue my things here.
It felt like Sex and the city scene.
I also regret not going to the HC gig yesterday - Aleksi had bought as earplugs, and was truly disappointed. He sends me mail where he says things like: "well see you when you have a blue hair"
And I feel my life is boring as no one really understands things like that, adult people especially.
I think Aleksi is immature and shit like that -but guess it's a benefit.
Guess when I have been hanging out here I have tried to be so.. mature - but after watching tv for one evening I miss to be a impulsive and random kid again cause I'm still a teeeeeeeeen though.
Like last weekend.
But that was too Sex in the City too :D
Never apologize for being random, that's what makes you so awesome. ♥
ah what to do.
Linggo, Agosto 30, 2009
Once and never again
In books big things, long lasting tasks are put in one phrase.
She went to work. She came home. She fell in love. Quite..simple. And thats a whole day in 3 phrases.
I have a lot to tell
I have kissed more people in this month than I have fingers.
I have been drunk this month more than I was last year.
She went to work. She came home. She fell in love. Quite..simple. And thats a whole day in 3 phrases.
I have a lot to tell
I have kissed more people in this month than I have fingers.
I have been drunk this month more than I was last year.
Biyernes, Agosto 28, 2009
Picture flood
Naali really liked the raspberry sorbet I bought - but yesterday we couldn't find it from the K-market. So instead we took strawberry and mango sorbet with chocoalte ice cream /w blueberries, gigantic ones
*workign working screwing, cute*
Antti told me he can't cook and me neither. So we made bacon pasta!
People from demoscene are TALLLLL and we brush teeth!
The Skene Klubi in Kurvi/ Sörnäinen
The Night of Arts brought lots of people to the club ^^ few days alter Norppa, Tazze and me were cleaning the place.
Taxi cruising part 303863763
we ment to grill at the boozembly place but the grill was distroyed :<
Duncan speed speed
Ossi and Monica are super cute!!! ^3^
Damones car :DD
I wanted to picture Antti with the taxi but lol i was too slow...
3am naali, duncan and niilinhai
duncan in the morning
club concoles
my school 's hall :)
Tiina's princess cake that had rose petals!
See... vegetables and ribbon pasta!<3
Antti playes guitar hero from his balcony while taking a smoke :D:D:D:D:D:
*workign working screwing, cute*
Antti told me he can't cook and me neither. So we made bacon pasta!
People from demoscene are TALLLLL and we brush teeth!
The Skene Klubi in Kurvi/ Sörnäinen
The Night of Arts brought lots of people to the club ^^ few days alter Norppa, Tazze and me were cleaning the place.
Taxi cruising part 303863763
we ment to grill at the boozembly place but the grill was distroyed :<
Duncan speed speed
Ossi and Monica are super cute!!! ^3^
Damones car :DD
I wanted to picture Antti with the taxi but lol i was too slow...
3am naali, duncan and niilinhai
duncan in the morning
club concoles
my school 's hall :)
Tiina's princess cake that had rose petals!
See... vegetables and ribbon pasta!<3
Antti playes guitar hero from his balcony while taking a smoke :D:D:D:D:D:
Huwebes, Agosto 27, 2009
Huono suunnitelma joka vois toimia
My plan iswn't going to work at all cause I'm just making the web around me and keeping others outside.
I drew naali yesterday at math class :D
I drew naali yesterday at math class :D
Martes, Agosto 25, 2009
Biyernes, Agosto 21, 2009
Taiteiden yö.
We have made now 4 different dishes that includes bacon with Antti! :DDD
Everytime delicious! ^___________^
I like my school, the courses and today it's the Night of arts in Helsinki \o/
Now as I'm at Skene Klubi - I'm going to head to Kiasma tonight to see some demos Nosfe stiched together.
Then at 3am me and nosfe are going to the PWP meeting in Turku with a bus.
Exciting!
Everytime delicious! ^___________^
I like my school, the courses and today it's the Night of arts in Helsinki \o/
Now as I'm at Skene Klubi - I'm going to head to Kiasma tonight to see some demos Nosfe stiched together.
Then at 3am me and nosfe are going to the PWP meeting in Turku with a bus.
Exciting!
Huwebes, Agosto 20, 2009
Lystiä ei ainakaan mikrosta
Koulu alkanu kivasti, tuntuu ihan siltä kun olisi menny ekaa kertaa sinne jännitti ja kaikkea.
Tänään ois kuvis kolmosta ja terveystieto kolmosta :P
Samuli oli leikannu hiukset - olin siellä parvella ja mietin tuleeko se enään kouluun tai miltä se näyttää. Sit se oli silleen "Moi". Se tykkää hanoi rocksista, mä tykkään vaan kahesta niiden biisistä.
Eilen oli tosi kesäinen päivä ja inhotti hypärit, hypärit on hyvii talvel.
Kävin ostaa sen bongin Naalille, jos ois joskus surku pitää mennä vaan Steissin Cyberiin kikattelee Annan ja Katrin kanssa ^^
Rowina sai eilen raudat - vitsi tuntuu jotenki vanhalta sanoa että "Kun minä olin nuori ni ne oli kyllä kirjaimellisesti raudat!" ne on söpöt! Oon oikeastaan kateellinen!
Sit värjättiin sen hiukset, niistä tuli tumman punaset ^^
Sit hipsuloin skeneklubille, mua ujostuttaa siel simulisti - mut ei midist, ehkä hyväkskäytän sitä silleen et tykkään olla ihmisten lähettyvillä.
Jotenki sikke aikasin minä ja naali mentiin sit ostaa mättöö - joo tehtiin ite mättööö! IHAN ITE!
tai tää oli kyl kolmas ruoka mis on pekonii :----DDD no mutta se on vähänkö "salee hyvää"-juttu.
Katottiin Planet terror, vaik se oli vähän plööh must se oli kiva. Zombaus ja hottius - sanois bang bang bang!<3
Mun sänky kotona on varmaan pölyinen kun siinä ei oo nyt paljoo nukuttu...
Tänään ois kuvis kolmosta ja terveystieto kolmosta :P
Samuli oli leikannu hiukset - olin siellä parvella ja mietin tuleeko se enään kouluun tai miltä se näyttää. Sit se oli silleen "Moi". Se tykkää hanoi rocksista, mä tykkään vaan kahesta niiden biisistä.
Eilen oli tosi kesäinen päivä ja inhotti hypärit, hypärit on hyvii talvel.
Kävin ostaa sen bongin Naalille, jos ois joskus surku pitää mennä vaan Steissin Cyberiin kikattelee Annan ja Katrin kanssa ^^
Rowina sai eilen raudat - vitsi tuntuu jotenki vanhalta sanoa että "Kun minä olin nuori ni ne oli kyllä kirjaimellisesti raudat!" ne on söpöt! Oon oikeastaan kateellinen!
Sit värjättiin sen hiukset, niistä tuli tumman punaset ^^
Sit hipsuloin skeneklubille, mua ujostuttaa siel simulisti - mut ei midist, ehkä hyväkskäytän sitä silleen et tykkään olla ihmisten lähettyvillä.
Jotenki sikke aikasin minä ja naali mentiin sit ostaa mättöö - joo tehtiin ite mättööö! IHAN ITE!
tai tää oli kyl kolmas ruoka mis on pekonii :----DDD no mutta se on vähänkö "salee hyvää"-juttu.
Katottiin Planet terror, vaik se oli vähän plööh must se oli kiva. Zombaus ja hottius - sanois bang bang bang!<3
Mun sänky kotona on varmaan pölyinen kun siinä ei oo nyt paljoo nukuttu...
Sabado, Agosto 15, 2009
Lempieläimiä
again in finnish.
Hmm luin just rajatilasta. Se vois olla se uus. Ei mulla koskaan ole ollut mitään kunnon diagnoosia - tai ainakaan sellaista mitä tahdon uskoa.
Aika hyvän diagnoosin saisivat just mun viimeisimmästä viikosta.
Mukavuuden haluinen tyyppi tuo.
[13:53:21] <@bze> muutenki tää 'neko' vaikuttaa vähä siltä et
sillä ei oo kaikki inkkarit kanootis
On ollu töitä, palkkakin nousi ja muuten oon ottanu ihan rennosti.
Cheerleadingin suhteen uusi joukkue löytyy kirjoitusten jälkeen.
[13:49:37] <@sauli_> näin eilen nekon ja kakan romanttisella
päivällisellä
Antin kanssa ollaan henggailtu, ja aika ala-aste meininki ku #suomiscenellä jatkaa tota juttuu :D
Ihan kiva tutustuu uusiin ihmisiin jotka ei välttis aja ja kannusta mua rappioon vaan esim kysy multa mihin kouluun mä aion hakea.
emt. must se oli vaan et "mitä....wow... jotain kiinnostaa korkeakoulututkinnot :oooooo mun vielä..."
Marin synttärit on kohta, sen jutut saa muhunki uutta energiaa! Siitä tulee viel iso juttu joku päivää :o Ajattelin kans tehdä/laittaa jotain hienoa päälle pantavaa sinne :3
Tää viikko on ollu ihana, simppelisti, shoppailin mutta vaan pikkasen ja sitten köllöttelin Kulosaaressa juomassa vadelma kivennäisvesiä jotka kuplii ja tuoksuttelin.
Katoin kun suoraniskainen ihminen hymyilee unissaan kun sitä hypistelee.
Autopilot?
Ihmiset saa kelaa että tää on joku ihmisjuttu mut tää on ehkä enempi sellanen hyvänolonjuttu.
Hmm luin just rajatilasta. Se vois olla se uus. Ei mulla koskaan ole ollut mitään kunnon diagnoosia - tai ainakaan sellaista mitä tahdon uskoa.
Aika hyvän diagnoosin saisivat just mun viimeisimmästä viikosta.
Mukavuuden haluinen tyyppi tuo.
[13:53:21] <@bze> muutenki tää 'neko' vaikuttaa vähä siltä et
sillä ei oo kaikki inkkarit kanootis
On ollu töitä, palkkakin nousi ja muuten oon ottanu ihan rennosti.
Cheerleadingin suhteen uusi joukkue löytyy kirjoitusten jälkeen.
[13:49:37] <@sauli_> näin eilen nekon ja kakan romanttisella
päivällisellä
Antin kanssa ollaan henggailtu, ja aika ala-aste meininki ku #suomiscenellä jatkaa tota juttuu :D
Ihan kiva tutustuu uusiin ihmisiin jotka ei välttis aja ja kannusta mua rappioon vaan esim kysy multa mihin kouluun mä aion hakea.
emt. must se oli vaan et "mitä....wow... jotain kiinnostaa korkeakoulututkinnot :oooooo mun vielä..."
Marin synttärit on kohta, sen jutut saa muhunki uutta energiaa! Siitä tulee viel iso juttu joku päivää :o Ajattelin kans tehdä/laittaa jotain hienoa päälle pantavaa sinne :3
Tää viikko on ollu ihana, simppelisti, shoppailin mutta vaan pikkasen ja sitten köllöttelin Kulosaaressa juomassa vadelma kivennäisvesiä jotka kuplii ja tuoksuttelin.
Katoin kun suoraniskainen ihminen hymyilee unissaan kun sitä hypistelee.
Autopilot?
Ihmiset saa kelaa että tää on joku ihmisjuttu mut tää on ehkä enempi sellanen hyvänolonjuttu.
Biyernes, Agosto 14, 2009
Miyerkules, Agosto 12, 2009
Admitting it.
My mom told me that they two look too similar and knows what I'm up to.
Bad idea she says.
After talking two nights with reed and even he knows what the thing is.
I have to admit it. But just for myself.
But I'm a human too, they are - I'm just takin what I want/need.
Bad idea she says.
After talking two nights with reed and even he knows what the thing is.
I have to admit it. But just for myself.
But I'm a human too, they are - I'm just takin what I want/need.
bipolar sucks. Eat it.
Aleksi's friend told that after drinking alcohol too much it's a 2-week-lasting poisoning.
I want to see Aleksi, but guess I'm not ready or _that_ willing. I don't know him anymore - sounds corny but that's the trueth.
No smell of drawing and TV, eating pizza and being lazy on the sofa whole day. Giggling to stupid stuff, like armadillos.
It's just dirty cloths and anger.
even sleeping there feels like I rather die.
Who ate my bestfriend Aleksi.
Annoying.
I want to see Aleksi, but guess I'm not ready or _that_ willing. I don't know him anymore - sounds corny but that's the trueth.
No smell of drawing and TV, eating pizza and being lazy on the sofa whole day. Giggling to stupid stuff, like armadillos.
It's just dirty cloths and anger.
even sleeping there feels like I rather die.
Who ate my bestfriend Aleksi.
Annoying.
Martes, Agosto 11, 2009
CSS Sucks, I'll be RUDE
Työpäivä oli vähän buaaaa....(kirjotan nyt suomeks koska mun pitää harjotella)
Ekan kerran on vähän morkkis jutuista, koska niistä tehään niin ällömeheviä - koska oon tyttö.
Paskaa ja marjoja.
Ihastumiskiintiö vuotaa taas, ja tietoisesti aika väärään paikkaan koska se on aika turhaa koska se tyyppi on niin "aikuinen". Mä ihkutan liikaa ja se on silleen, öh oot kiva *on lisää aikuinen*.
Kai tää menee ohi... (flashback Shawn joka oli kans ihan aikuinen, vaikka se halus mun muuttavan sen luo ja blöärgh)
Sit mua vähän närästää kun on sellasia ihmisiä jotka on et "oon sun frendi eiku mä vaan halusin..."
Saaks repii ihmisii. Mä en tajuu. Kaikki tää aikuisuus on vähän surkuhupaisaa kun oikeesti mietin samaan aikaa ku joku puhuu suhteista "miten pingviini voi syyä maahan tippuneen kalan jos se lämmittää poikastaan..."
Onneks Sannalla oli nimipäivä sitten se syötätti meille duunis pullaa<3 Onneks Antti oli Flamesissa ja hypisteltiin mun napaa ( samal ku se hypisteli omaansa :DD wtf näkyjä.jpg) ja mietittiin että anti-eyebrowssa on sokeutumis mahollisuus.
Pitäis lakkaa kirjottamasta nimillä, pitäis lakkaamasta tykkää liikaa asioista - niinku banaaneista ja suorista niskoista. Kelailen että tätä lukee irc-galleriasta tutut j-ernut - niin kiva tietää et rivei paistelee #suomiscenelle vaikkei mulla oo ees lupaa joinaa *oon pikkasen katkera*
Ommattu niille:
Ei menty Reedin kans Areenalle pussaileen - me syötiin pizzaa ( se söi, mä lähinnä sammuilin) JA
Kakka on ihan kiva
Mun kaikki muutki kaverit syö pizzaa ja on ihan kivoja
- et Jenni ei saa nyt mitään seksitarinoita :< ..vaikka Jenni onki kiva
Piirit on kauheen pienet voitaisko tajuu et ollaan vähänkö perhe ( tai mä kelaan ) jotain sanaa sukurutsaus.. su ruts
Ekan kerran on vähän morkkis jutuista, koska niistä tehään niin ällömeheviä - koska oon tyttö.
Paskaa ja marjoja.
Ihastumiskiintiö vuotaa taas, ja tietoisesti aika väärään paikkaan koska se on aika turhaa koska se tyyppi on niin "aikuinen". Mä ihkutan liikaa ja se on silleen, öh oot kiva *on lisää aikuinen*.
Kai tää menee ohi... (flashback Shawn joka oli kans ihan aikuinen, vaikka se halus mun muuttavan sen luo ja blöärgh)
Sit mua vähän närästää kun on sellasia ihmisiä jotka on et "oon sun frendi eiku mä vaan halusin..."
Saaks repii ihmisii. Mä en tajuu. Kaikki tää aikuisuus on vähän surkuhupaisaa kun oikeesti mietin samaan aikaa ku joku puhuu suhteista "miten pingviini voi syyä maahan tippuneen kalan jos se lämmittää poikastaan..."
Onneks Sannalla oli nimipäivä sitten se syötätti meille duunis pullaa<3 Onneks Antti oli Flamesissa ja hypisteltiin mun napaa ( samal ku se hypisteli omaansa :DD wtf näkyjä.jpg) ja mietittiin että anti-eyebrowssa on sokeutumis mahollisuus.
Pitäis lakkaa kirjottamasta nimillä, pitäis lakkaamasta tykkää liikaa asioista - niinku banaaneista ja suorista niskoista. Kelailen että tätä lukee irc-galleriasta tutut j-ernut - niin kiva tietää et rivei paistelee #suomiscenelle vaikkei mulla oo ees lupaa joinaa *oon pikkasen katkera*
Ommattu niille:
Ei menty Reedin kans Areenalle pussaileen - me syötiin pizzaa ( se söi, mä lähinnä sammuilin) JA
Kakka on ihan kiva
Mun kaikki muutki kaverit syö pizzaa ja on ihan kivoja
- et Jenni ei saa nyt mitään seksitarinoita :< ..vaikka Jenni onki kiva
Piirit on kauheen pienet voitaisko tajuu et ollaan vähänkö perhe ( tai mä kelaan ) jotain sanaa sukurutsaus.. su ruts
Lunes, Agosto 10, 2009
No bananas.
I had a great and teachfull weekend at Assembly (boozembly)
Positive story: Got my costume in time ready and I went together with naadde to Assembly. Along the way we bought some yummy sushi from ichiban. We settled down to oldskool area and started to wondering around. I played some loco roco for hours and ate with a few friends in the arena. Desert Planet's gig was just awesome *LOVE* but there was this weird dude a teen, like 14 or something who seemed to be normal but wanted to hold hands all the time :DD
Rest of the time was spent mostly at boozembly 1km away from Hartwall arena, in DA woods, getting wasted.
First night I was there couple of times, lastest time was with nosfe, velikani and reed we sat there until 7am. Slept few hours in arena then back running around. Assembly was so fast like Breakpoint.
The two last nights were too much, too drunk to function - right. But atleast I woke up sleaping from naali's/kakka's place. I like his home, his cloths and he is a real gentleman and veery tall. So awesome. First time I see him sober, as magical as when I saw astu sobber at abin baari.
The last morning, myt legs were swallen, bug had eaten me and I was allergic. not nice.
Sunday was hot end it felt like the last summer day - and after it we wont see each other again anymore. All those nice people I meet only at parties. Nice time.
Negative story:
I was drunk -bad bad BAD. Well I dont care about my reputation - aslong the things talked behind me are true.
That's why I have learned tons of things.
Adults cant keep secrets, adults can make up and spread evil rumors, adults can be sneaky just to get "THE points" or make others to believe so.
I'm so weak and too nice to everybody - makes me look too easy.
Then I feel the things that are supposed to be felt, but when someone comes and says that things aren't like you see. I just drop and hard.
But when there is already damage done.
I will be
Positive story: Got my costume in time ready and I went together with naadde to Assembly. Along the way we bought some yummy sushi from ichiban. We settled down to oldskool area and started to wondering around. I played some loco roco for hours and ate with a few friends in the arena. Desert Planet's gig was just awesome *LOVE* but there was this weird dude a teen, like 14 or something who seemed to be normal but wanted to hold hands all the time :DD
Rest of the time was spent mostly at boozembly 1km away from Hartwall arena, in DA woods, getting wasted.
First night I was there couple of times, lastest time was with nosfe, velikani and reed we sat there until 7am. Slept few hours in arena then back running around. Assembly was so fast like Breakpoint.
The two last nights were too much, too drunk to function - right. But atleast I woke up sleaping from naali's/kakka's place. I like his home, his cloths and he is a real gentleman and veery tall. So awesome. First time I see him sober, as magical as when I saw astu sobber at abin baari.
The last morning, myt legs were swallen, bug had eaten me and I was allergic. not nice.
Sunday was hot end it felt like the last summer day - and after it we wont see each other again anymore. All those nice people I meet only at parties. Nice time.
Negative story:
I was drunk -bad bad BAD. Well I dont care about my reputation - aslong the things talked behind me are true.
That's why I have learned tons of things.
Adults cant keep secrets, adults can make up and spread evil rumors, adults can be sneaky just to get "THE points" or make others to believe so.
I'm so weak and too nice to everybody - makes me look too easy.
Then I feel the things that are supposed to be felt, but when someone comes and says that things aren't like you see. I just drop and hard.
But when there is already damage done.
I will be
Biyernes, Hulyo 31, 2009
Optimus Prime
If I would get a dog now, he/she would probably named either Optimus or Prime :DD Or Marshall! ( like one SGfriend of mine who lives in Tennesee) Sounds hero like.
Yesterday, I didn't feel any connection with Aleksi. It was almoust like going to movies alone - but paying for two tickets because his chipcard wasn't working (like he would offer the other one anyway, like on a date..)
Why do I always say yes, I would rather said "No, can't afford it now"
PLUS it was shown in the screen13 so it was small, I had to get out in the end because I had to pee.
Huh I tried to drool the univorms of the soldiers but didnt work had to get out.
Then I started to miss nice people; the kids in Phillipines, Sara and Shawn ( should stop writing about him LOL)
..But let's rewind to the part of the day I was still happy and optimistic!!
I woke up early and finnished my paintings' background. More white next time.
Then I went home ate some melonsalad with my mom and then got ready to practise.
Cheerleading feels good again and my teammates are awesome! But still I feel myself a "extra piece" because of my height (the shortest one so I dont have a basepair) - well If I can't make it to the nationals squad I'll just do my best what ever I can do along them. ^^
.. I wish schools would start already the first period sounds so great "math, sex education and TWO ART COURSES <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3" and finals of psychology and sex education!
.. This weekend it's all about working <3 I love Cybershop! And then I'll get my Nintendo DSi and convert rest of my salary already to dollars (so I wont spend it) :3
It's getting exciting!!
ps. there is a huge zit in my right nostril, and it keeps just swelling, actually the nosehole starts to look smaller cause of it :D It's funny but disgusting.
Yesterday, I didn't feel any connection with Aleksi. It was almoust like going to movies alone - but paying for two tickets because his chipcard wasn't working (like he would offer the other one anyway, like on a date..)
Why do I always say yes, I would rather said "No, can't afford it now"
PLUS it was shown in the screen13 so it was small, I had to get out in the end because I had to pee.
Huh I tried to drool the univorms of the soldiers but didnt work had to get out.
Then I started to miss nice people; the kids in Phillipines, Sara and Shawn ( should stop writing about him LOL)
..But let's rewind to the part of the day I was still happy and optimistic!!
I woke up early and finnished my paintings' background. More white next time.
Then I went home ate some melonsalad with my mom and then got ready to practise.
Cheerleading feels good again and my teammates are awesome! But still I feel myself a "extra piece" because of my height (the shortest one so I dont have a basepair) - well If I can't make it to the nationals squad I'll just do my best what ever I can do along them. ^^
.. I wish schools would start already the first period sounds so great "math, sex education and TWO ART COURSES <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3" and finals of psychology and sex education!
.. This weekend it's all about working <3 I love Cybershop! And then I'll get my Nintendo DSi and convert rest of my salary already to dollars (so I wont spend it) :3
It's getting exciting!!
ps. there is a huge zit in my right nostril, and it keeps just swelling, actually the nosehole starts to look smaller cause of it :D It's funny but disgusting.
Miyerkules, Hulyo 22, 2009
It can't be about me me me without thinking the team!
.. our coaches told us yesterday. Giving me a very guilty feeling as having a fever in last practise, and not training among the others.
I'm feeling again about quitting, just can't give the things that being in competive team needs.
Short -tiny- I should be a flyer, but I don't want to not flexible enough nor light weighted.
I need to go to work.
But I want to do sports, cheerleading is love - but is this going to be too much for me now?
Fall isn't going to be any better: trip to U.S, finals, work - like shieeet, need to pay my bills with something.
I was thinking going to a beginners team or so.. can't believe that's the awnser.
What should I do.
Coaches are serious, everybody is,
and I have a fever - I'm a bad me me me person.
but I did think about Aleksi, my bestfriend, if he starts to go to contemporary art meetings - I should make my way out of "doing nothin" phase.
or is this a hint "concentrate in your school?"
I'm feeling again about quitting, just can't give the things that being in competive team needs.
Short -tiny- I should be a flyer, but I don't want to not flexible enough nor light weighted.
I need to go to work.
But I want to do sports, cheerleading is love - but is this going to be too much for me now?
Fall isn't going to be any better: trip to U.S, finals, work - like shieeet, need to pay my bills with something.
I was thinking going to a beginners team or so.. can't believe that's the awnser.
What should I do.
Coaches are serious, everybody is,
and I have a fever - I'm a bad me me me person.
but I did think about Aleksi, my bestfriend, if he starts to go to contemporary art meetings - I should make my way out of "doing nothin" phase.
or is this a hint "concentrate in your school?"
Martes, Hulyo 21, 2009
Did you ask for hot cocoa?
So back in Finland. It's so silent and so much less people around me! :o
The trip from phillipines via Abu Dhabi and Heathrow was okay but we had one suitcase missing again.. but it came the very same day.
I really want to spend a holiday in Abu Dhabi - it seems to be inhabited by arab royalties only, and facilities to their needs. For example the Etihad airline, is sooooo fancy in side that you can't believe sitting in a tourist class!
Yesterday I already hang out with Aleksi and he adviced me to get rather a Nintendo DSi than a PSP. I was pretty suprised there wasn't so much games for psp in shops o_O
There was so much cute games in my taste for Nintendo DS that I think I'm going to buy one! <3
The trip from phillipines via Abu Dhabi and Heathrow was okay but we had one suitcase missing again.. but it came the very same day.
I really want to spend a holiday in Abu Dhabi - it seems to be inhabited by arab royalties only, and facilities to their needs. For example the Etihad airline, is sooooo fancy in side that you can't believe sitting in a tourist class!
Yesterday I already hang out with Aleksi and he adviced me to get rather a Nintendo DSi than a PSP. I was pretty suprised there wasn't so much games for psp in shops o_O
There was so much cute games in my taste for Nintendo DS that I think I'm going to buy one! <3
Linggo, Hulyo 12, 2009
Sooo manyyyyy
Yesterday I played 2 boardgames and held a water color session Trisha 9 and Paolo 7 .. until 11am.
Then there is Brian 14, DJ 16, Carlo 8 and JP 8 in the computer shop.
Then in the evening there comes Basti 5, who seems to be into dinosaurs and PSP. (yeah and I played with Action men in age of 5..)
They nicely play dota and other computer games and then try top teach me too.
Basti is so cute :DD
*basti keeps weird noises*
mom:what is that
basti: im a flying lizard
mom: (thinking some ones bullied him) Who says you are a lizard ?
basti: there is lots of us! *continues keepeing noises and saying he is a * a long latin dinosaur name*)
I thought I dont like kids, but i seem to get well with them :DD
Before I felt asleep Basti comes to me .. "is my mommy here" I say no "Okay, then i'll say to granny i rather go home". But he nicely falls asleep around midnight.
Then in the morning I wake up when the door is opened. Basti: "where is my dinosaurus, or it's bones" (i gave him a dinosaur rock, but I said to him to wait his father to help him so I hide it)
then i continue sleeping few moments later :"is my dinosaur here yet?' I awnser "let's ask your dad when he comes" and finally wake up.
Then Pauline 4, comes in the afternoon and just drops her yaws when seeing my hair "PIIINKKKK!"
Kids are cool ^^ Happy ones especially
Then there is Brian 14, DJ 16, Carlo 8 and JP 8 in the computer shop.
Then in the evening there comes Basti 5, who seems to be into dinosaurs and PSP. (yeah and I played with Action men in age of 5..)
They nicely play dota and other computer games and then try top teach me too.
Basti is so cute :DD
*basti keeps weird noises*
mom:what is that
basti: im a flying lizard
mom: (thinking some ones bullied him) Who says you are a lizard ?
basti: there is lots of us! *continues keepeing noises and saying he is a * a long latin dinosaur name*)
I thought I dont like kids, but i seem to get well with them :DD
Before I felt asleep Basti comes to me .. "is my mommy here" I say no "Okay, then i'll say to granny i rather go home". But he nicely falls asleep around midnight.
Then in the morning I wake up when the door is opened. Basti: "where is my dinosaurus, or it's bones" (i gave him a dinosaur rock, but I said to him to wait his father to help him so I hide it)
then i continue sleeping few moments later :"is my dinosaur here yet?' I awnser "let's ask your dad when he comes" and finally wake up.
Then Pauline 4, comes in the afternoon and just drops her yaws when seeing my hair "PIIINKKKK!"
Kids are cool ^^ Happy ones especially
Biyernes, Hulyo 10, 2009
Imagine
People say, or it has been said it's a jackpot to born in Finland
- Ok, I didn't born there but grew. I think in finnish and think I'm Finnish.
After watching the documentary of honor murders in Afghanistan, seen people really breaking their spine to earn their living - and long list things I wouldn't want to my every day life,
leaves only few problems to Finnish everyday life.. chemicals in our food and the assfrozing winter. *OH NOES*
I'm really thankful to live and study in Finland - be myself, know my rights and be free!
I really don't care about politics ( nor do understand anything of it) - but it upsets me when realizing that there's people not acting and treating each others in the level our brains are developed to.
When seeing modern Asian women shopping, wearing high heels and carrying their pride - I hope women in middle east will be in this point someday to! I saw the work done already(safety homes for women victims, taxis for women, women lawyers ..) and hear about the girls playing soccer in their burkhas, it makes me smile!
People shouldn't be whining about this traditional wear - but look up to theese women that show what they can do, fighting! (compare to: WE CAN DO IT! in western culture decades ago)
I'm proud to be a girl and want to be proud of others too!
- Ok, I didn't born there but grew. I think in finnish and think I'm Finnish.
After watching the documentary of honor murders in Afghanistan, seen people really breaking their spine to earn their living - and long list things I wouldn't want to my every day life,
leaves only few problems to Finnish everyday life.. chemicals in our food and the assfrozing winter. *OH NOES*
I'm really thankful to live and study in Finland - be myself, know my rights and be free!
I really don't care about politics ( nor do understand anything of it) - but it upsets me when realizing that there's people not acting and treating each others in the level our brains are developed to.
When seeing modern Asian women shopping, wearing high heels and carrying their pride - I hope women in middle east will be in this point someday to! I saw the work done already(safety homes for women victims, taxis for women, women lawyers ..) and hear about the girls playing soccer in their burkhas, it makes me smile!
People shouldn't be whining about this traditional wear - but look up to theese women that show what they can do, fighting! (compare to: WE CAN DO IT! in western culture decades ago)
I'm proud to be a girl and want to be proud of others too!
Huwebes, Hulyo 09, 2009
Huwebes, Hulyo 02, 2009
feeling sick
how come I get this sick this easily ;___; runny nose and temperature.. In winter twice, this spring twice one in germany.. When i was a kid it was like once in a 3 years!
Awkward moments that I hate, moments after you can't laugh.
(Like the moment when my curiosity about Iraq just overloaded in Shawn's car. He didn't seem to be angry but I shame myself * stupid me* )
Like the moment my father comes behind me reading my stuff I write to a support group board or not reading the exact stuff but peeking in what site am I.. There's things we still cant talk in our family and .. it feels okay but feeling angry and shamed after people come asking me what i'm doing .__.
I currently don't feel so happy with my parents - it pisses me off people calling me with my lil sis name, and mom saying that i want to look like my lil sister, or my parents forgeting what i do or well forget me anyway...
or my long time non-seen grandmom kinda pushing me on side because of my looks.
Maybe it's just that they are going a phase that should they care or not about what I'm doing.
Simply, not okay.
Awkward moments that I hate, moments after you can't laugh.
(Like the moment when my curiosity about Iraq just overloaded in Shawn's car. He didn't seem to be angry but I shame myself * stupid me* )
Like the moment my father comes behind me reading my stuff I write to a support group board or not reading the exact stuff but peeking in what site am I.. There's things we still cant talk in our family and .. it feels okay but feeling angry and shamed after people come asking me what i'm doing .__.
I currently don't feel so happy with my parents - it pisses me off people calling me with my lil sis name, and mom saying that i want to look like my lil sister, or my parents forgeting what i do or well forget me anyway...
or my long time non-seen grandmom kinda pushing me on side because of my looks.
Maybe it's just that they are going a phase that should they care or not about what I'm doing.
Simply, not okay.
Miyerkules, Hulyo 01, 2009
Biyernes, Hunyo 19, 2009
YMCA
Hey, I'm flying tomorrow to Phillipines - unbelievable! <3
Today we went to watch Coraline in 3D with Aleksi, hang around the town, then we supposed to eat nepalese in Mount Everest, but it was going to close earlier so we went to eat some italian! Aleksi had his best pizza ever and I had some salmon penne pasta.
We made an ice cream cake and Aleksi put my piercing ball into my smiley *amazing (cause I cant do it myself .__. also he has almoust 0% experience with piercings*!
It was kinda sad to leave him. I think he had tears on his eyes of i love his smell!
It's more painful to know that you will say 'bye' for some specific long period than.. you are not even sure will you ever see again like with Shawn.
The trip to Phillipines haven't even started and I'm already dreaming about New York and Atlanta.
All tourist guidebooks filled text, b/w pictures and addresses to expensive restaurants don't make sense to me - and the reason I touched them was the cheap _small_ maps coming with them.
Guess need to PRINT my own ones of both cities. The only version Atlanta on it seems to be "The map of Georgia and The South" (?? South.. until what)
Just read from one forum (madventures) topic about Atlanta:
" You won't understand their english, and they wont understand you even you think you are speaking english"
I think it's going to be same in the Phillipines but I wont anything let me down!
I want to learn the language now! >:B
I want to sleep-over at Aleksi... don't want to sleep without him being near.
He is my bestfriend!
I feel myself unsecure ._. also miss Didi but I hope she is happy and safe.
Today we went to watch Coraline in 3D with Aleksi, hang around the town, then we supposed to eat nepalese in Mount Everest, but it was going to close earlier so we went to eat some italian! Aleksi had his best pizza ever and I had some salmon penne pasta.
We made an ice cream cake and Aleksi put my piercing ball into my smiley *amazing (cause I cant do it myself .__. also he has almoust 0% experience with piercings*!
It was kinda sad to leave him. I think he had tears on his eyes of i love his smell!
It's more painful to know that you will say 'bye' for some specific long period than.. you are not even sure will you ever see again like with Shawn.
The trip to Phillipines haven't even started and I'm already dreaming about New York and Atlanta.
All tourist guidebooks filled text, b/w pictures and addresses to expensive restaurants don't make sense to me - and the reason I touched them was the cheap _small_ maps coming with them.
Guess need to PRINT my own ones of both cities. The only version Atlanta on it seems to be "The map of Georgia and The South" (?? South.. until what)
Just read from one forum (madventures) topic about Atlanta:
" You won't understand their english, and they wont understand you even you think you are speaking english"
I think it's going to be same in the Phillipines but I wont anything let me down!
I want to learn the language now! >:B
I want to sleep-over at Aleksi... don't want to sleep without him being near.
He is my bestfriend!
I feel myself unsecure ._. also miss Didi but I hope she is happy and safe.
Miyerkules, Hunyo 03, 2009
Mulla on vähän sanomista
Something I wish to say - two
Seen lately so many nightmares
1.
"Joihinki se iskee huomenna, ens viikolla, puolen vuoden päästä tai 20 vuoden päästä"
Syytän sua siitä että en tykkää kumisista ilmapalloista, tyhjinä, täysinä tai varsinkaan niiden räjähtäessä. Syytän sua siitä että kätteleminen on musta vastenmielistä.
Oon sitä mieltä että mut ois pitäny nukuttaa ja mulla oli sun takia ihan hirveä olla. Oli talvi, mun päässä humisi ja mun sisällä kupli vihreästi. Tiiän miks äidit on nyt niin sitkeitä ja mä olen heikko.
Luulin tekeväni oikein, ja viimeistään tänään oon edelleen samaa mieltä kun tajusin että sun isäs ois ollu aika epäkiinnostunu susta. Vaikka sitä muka kiinnostais saimaan norpat- se on vaan sen takia että pitää miellyttää ihmisiä joka on normaali mut se kieltää sen silti, niin kolmen vuoden jälkeen tiiän sanoa että se on sellanen liihottaja jota ei kiinnosta ottaa kiinni. Ei musta niin väliä, mä puren ruokkivaa kättäkin, mutta tänään kun kerrankin se ei ollu painajaista tiesin että susta ois ollu tullu sairaan magee tyyppi. Me naurettais ja meidän ei tarttis kiinnostua kuka sun iskä on, koska meitä kiinnostaa lauantai-aamun piirretyt, mitkä se kuitenki nukkuis darras ohi tai se ei vois kattoa niitä kun sitä häiritsee että joku sössöttää. Sä oisit ihan hirveän hämmentyny, sulle se kyl salee jaksais esittää ainaki 2 vuotta.
Oon sitä mieltä että sun kaltasille pitäis antaa parasta, ja vaikkei rakkaudella välttis ruokitakkaan suita musta tuntuu että oot se joka ansaitsee mun sydämmen enemmän kun kukaan. Mulla on sellanen fiilis et sun nimi ois alkanu B:llä tai V:llä. Ja tuoksuisit hunajalle. Anteeks.
2.
En tiiä onko mun unet painajaisia tai toiveita. Itekki sanoit että mun olemassaolo on kun unta.
Mulla on ihan sairaan ikävä sua. Miten joku voi sanoa ääneen että tahtoo kunnioittaa mua koska tietää mun antsaitsevan sellasta. Se oli sitä valkosta ja tumman sinistä valoa.
Aito ja rehellinen. Nyt mulle ei enää kelpaa mikä vaan.
Seen lately so many nightmares
1.
"Joihinki se iskee huomenna, ens viikolla, puolen vuoden päästä tai 20 vuoden päästä"
Syytän sua siitä että en tykkää kumisista ilmapalloista, tyhjinä, täysinä tai varsinkaan niiden räjähtäessä. Syytän sua siitä että kätteleminen on musta vastenmielistä.
Oon sitä mieltä että mut ois pitäny nukuttaa ja mulla oli sun takia ihan hirveä olla. Oli talvi, mun päässä humisi ja mun sisällä kupli vihreästi. Tiiän miks äidit on nyt niin sitkeitä ja mä olen heikko.
Luulin tekeväni oikein, ja viimeistään tänään oon edelleen samaa mieltä kun tajusin että sun isäs ois ollu aika epäkiinnostunu susta. Vaikka sitä muka kiinnostais saimaan norpat- se on vaan sen takia että pitää miellyttää ihmisiä joka on normaali mut se kieltää sen silti, niin kolmen vuoden jälkeen tiiän sanoa että se on sellanen liihottaja jota ei kiinnosta ottaa kiinni. Ei musta niin väliä, mä puren ruokkivaa kättäkin, mutta tänään kun kerrankin se ei ollu painajaista tiesin että susta ois ollu tullu sairaan magee tyyppi. Me naurettais ja meidän ei tarttis kiinnostua kuka sun iskä on, koska meitä kiinnostaa lauantai-aamun piirretyt, mitkä se kuitenki nukkuis darras ohi tai se ei vois kattoa niitä kun sitä häiritsee että joku sössöttää. Sä oisit ihan hirveän hämmentyny, sulle se kyl salee jaksais esittää ainaki 2 vuotta.
Oon sitä mieltä että sun kaltasille pitäis antaa parasta, ja vaikkei rakkaudella välttis ruokitakkaan suita musta tuntuu että oot se joka ansaitsee mun sydämmen enemmän kun kukaan. Mulla on sellanen fiilis et sun nimi ois alkanu B:llä tai V:llä. Ja tuoksuisit hunajalle. Anteeks.
2.
En tiiä onko mun unet painajaisia tai toiveita. Itekki sanoit että mun olemassaolo on kun unta.
Mulla on ihan sairaan ikävä sua. Miten joku voi sanoa ääneen että tahtoo kunnioittaa mua koska tietää mun antsaitsevan sellasta. Se oli sitä valkosta ja tumman sinistä valoa.
Aito ja rehellinen. Nyt mulle ei enää kelpaa mikä vaan.
Lunes, Hunyo 01, 2009
Summer how I have missed you
this morning when I walked Aleksi's dog in the park realized how, why I love the finnish summer so much.
This weekend was Luumis' graduation - and we partied it at his place (yeah all fancy, and relatives visiting) He looked so cool in a tux :)
The we went to his sister's place and then when I was getting tired, (and yeah I should have been cleaning with my mom) I went to sleep to Aleksi.
Drunk.
Next morning Aleksi came to my parents' place to hang out and and watch the madventures episode about Phillipines.
This is youth.
We went to a gasoline station to get some ice cream, bare foot and in belly shirts (okay he was wearing a wife-beater/tank top)
It was hot and we went to finish our ice creams to a local garden shop :---D just sitting on at the "garden furniture" department, like bunch of homeless kids.
Also we were wondering should we get a carnivore-plant or a cactus.
Then we went to the rocks play ninjas, running and climbing.
We watched for a while TV, napped and then went barefoot to the near forest playing ninjas again.
TV, then we made some pasta and jello :D and took a nap again.
Before sleeping we spoke about leaving, staying, forgetting. Aleksi is my best friend.
And to study in U.S sounds every day more.. scary. But guess I should go to a tour and take a portfolio-course for applying to SCAD.
It sounds a super secure place- having all the around-the-clonk security guards.
But I'm too scared to leave with anyone in a shared room :/
This weekend was Luumis' graduation - and we partied it at his place (yeah all fancy, and relatives visiting) He looked so cool in a tux :)
The we went to his sister's place and then when I was getting tired, (and yeah I should have been cleaning with my mom) I went to sleep to Aleksi.
Drunk.
Next morning Aleksi came to my parents' place to hang out and and watch the madventures episode about Phillipines.
This is youth.
We went to a gasoline station to get some ice cream, bare foot and in belly shirts (okay he was wearing a wife-beater/tank top)
It was hot and we went to finish our ice creams to a local garden shop :---D just sitting on at the "garden furniture" department, like bunch of homeless kids.
Also we were wondering should we get a carnivore-plant or a cactus.
Then we went to the rocks play ninjas, running and climbing.
We watched for a while TV, napped and then went barefoot to the near forest playing ninjas again.
TV, then we made some pasta and jello :D and took a nap again.
Before sleeping we spoke about leaving, staying, forgetting. Aleksi is my best friend.
And to study in U.S sounds every day more.. scary. But guess I should go to a tour and take a portfolio-course for applying to SCAD.
It sounds a super secure place- having all the around-the-clonk security guards.
But I'm too scared to leave with anyone in a shared room :/
Biyernes, Mayo 22, 2009
Boku wa kuma kuma kuma~
I called Aleksi "Help, I'm getting wet!" and waited for him topick me up with an umbrella.
Sat under the highwaybridge, where used to be a railway.
Listening to Lily Allen and playing with my new dinosaur toy that came with the happy meal.
Sat under the highwaybridge, where used to be a railway.
Listening to Lily Allen and playing with my new dinosaur toy that came with the happy meal.
Huwebes, Mayo 21, 2009
Picture storm!
I have been wishing to have somekind of a national pride like Americans do ( all the stars and stripes thing..) but what can you do - if people think your either racist or ..weird. And in my case, it's complicated, I'm part german and part filipino but a finnish citicent :P
Yes I have been baking.. it's maybe the spring and sun that has made me crazy. *making blueberry pie there ^^*
The content of my DreadViolette package! \o/ sheet of pink foam, pink wire loom, and 2 package of kanekalon. You are able to see the result in Alternative party 2009 ;D
Done work alot! Some pictures from our Kamppi Store. Ghettoblaste-bags and a bunch of piercings in storage ^^ Colours<3
So style things must be added too... So forgot the brand, but found this shirt from a sale last summer and as it was a guys XXL I customized it ALOT, and even cut out the brand ._.
it used to coast something like 69 euros but got it for around 19 because of the sale in JC ;D
Finally when I got money - went straight to The Geezers in Kallio, Helsinki. Really good service and got some stuff for free "jsut to rty" as im a novice in theese things. Also a really cheap place, I got the caps for free but all cans were together around 21 € (notice: the gigantic Clash- can <3)
More about work, the book I got (House to house by david Bellavia) havent much open taht book as it scares the shit out of me. My favorite chocolate I like to munch at work, and the coin bank i supposed to send to Shawn. (actually had to send the one with a cookie, but if i'm going to still send it i cant picture it ;DDDDD) I have started to work and save like crazy to all kind of stuff, for the trips actually.
Last night I cooked for Aleksi and me, a "makaroonilaatikko" in finnish. It's a thing where you usually put macaroni and meatmince eggs and milk then oven it. But as I'm in a red-meat-free-diet until Phillipines trip - I made it from macaroni, mozzarella cheese, green peas, onions, corn, and paprika ( and to keep this thing together, milk and cheese) Also for dessert Baked Alaska from Ben and Jerry's.
Yay, everything is so green! <3
I have been also trying to get rid off things I haven really been using. For example theese shoes, Never really worn them, but I simply keep them as a decoration :/ Super sexy pair of shoes so hope they'll find quick a new owner ^^ ( the problem just is that people think that they are too high :<)
I was yesterday in a "tattoo party" of Legacy tattoos, where usually is half year lines to get tattooed. Been a customer there before - so knew it's a cool place to take tattoos (seems to be specialized to "old School tattoos" or sailor-style). The idea was to pick from ready made "flashes" pictures and pay 20€ (which is super cheap as the prices are starting from 80€)
There was so seriously hilarious pictures! (like, super simple flowers, drunken monkeys, whales, swastikas, FTW...) And I was considering already to take one armadillo to my butt cheek :DDDDD But instead of an armadillo, when one of the 6 tattooa rtist picked me ( which was jussi who did my scissors in my rib) I went like "oh okay i'll take this" and picked this ribbon to my wrist. It looks suepr random so need some work near it ;D guess i'll fix it in the next tattoo party.
Love the feeling getting tattooed.
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