Sua en saa

Nollie Spankkiin laitan asiallisuuksia, tänne vineen.
Tähänkin tarvittiin taas uusi mies.
Olen ällöttynyt
Menneisyydestä heijastetaan liikkuvaa kuvaa ja järkyttyneitä tunteita - jatkoin silloinkinmun valkoisten sunnuntaiden nauttimisesta.
En edes muista kenen kanssa niitäkään oli.
Nyt ei tunnu hyvältä, olen pöhkö.
Ei näin saa kierrättää ja jakaa.
Mitä tämä kertoo tilanteestani, missä en saa miehen nimeä suusta ja olen salaisesti kurjistunu

Toivottavasti ei tarvitse olla sinulle mukava, vaikka oletkin minulle.
En tahdo hetkiä missä minä tunnen aidosti ensimmäisen kerran, ehkä sinulla on hullu pakkohulluus hullutella hetkiä uudestaan ja uudestaan.
Törkeää hän minun kaverini jonka juttuja luin ja kuuntelin.

Moi

With all your might

Last one.
Math please dont kill me, i love my calculator!
If i would know how put japanese influenced emoticons would put htem here.

You need to get over it

I kinda feel jealous and unwanted right now.
Jealousy was suprising - I dont even like him anymore, but still feeling like this.
evil evil
bad bad
i'm disapointed on myself, eaten the whole day and afraid of the possibility ill distroy my friends life.
I'm such an awful mess right now.
Lucky I have compotions, breakpoint and editoring articles keeping me busy.
But at this kind of moments when i have made everything for the day, reminds me how miserable I really am.

dream of your hands, represents your relationship to those around you. Hands serve as a form of communication. Perhaps you need to lend out a helping hand to someone. The right hand may also be a pun for some decision or something being "right". If your dream that your hands are detached or see disembodied hands, then it indicates feelings that you are not getting your point of view across or that others do not understand you. The dream may also symbolize feelings of loneliness.

Wake up pretty Suzie!

I'm so young and you're so old
This, my darling, I've been told
I don't care just what they say
'Cause forever I will pray
You and I will be as free
As the birds up in the trees
Oh, please stay by me, ipouni

Thrills I get when you hold me close
Oh, my darling, you're the most
I love you but do you love me
Oh, mister, can't you see
I love you with all my heart
And I hope we will never part
Oh, please stay with me, ipouni

Oh, my darlin', oh, my lover
Tell me that there is no other
I love you with my heart
Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh
Only you can take my heart
Only you can tear it apart
When you hold me in your loving arms
I can feel you giving all your charms
Hold me, darling, ho-ho hold me tight
Squeeze me baby with-a all your might
Oh, please stay with me, MISTER

I kinda feel insane

But you dont stop trying

Busy busy.
But drawings, dishes from drinking chilicocoa, dozens of facecreams, body butters and CDs lying here and there tells that I have enjoyed myself and been productive.

mr. iPhone is in my oppinion more busy than ever since we met ( the spring awakening of the game industry) , but he sacrifices more time to spend with me compared to the past times.
As I decided not to reveal his identity in my blog i'll continue telling stuff in a form I feel okay
So, he does games, codes, reads about quantum mechanics.
After long days at work and business conferences he still has the time to have a undress-me-tag at the office or energy go to the movies :D
And it's never enough and I get moody. spoiled brat
I wish to have him overnight, put my hands around him while sleeping.
Kiss his cocacola tasting lips.
we are planning to travel to Japan. Hope this is for real.
He gave me his shirt. which smells like him.
He contacted one of my female-friends and it's kinda weird but guess he is trying to show something.

At times when I should be busy - I find myself trying to fall asleep, thinking about him or just smiling and making faces to myself in front of a mirror.
Trying to have lunch with someone.
I feel so, worthless.

" I didn't eat for three days, so I could be lovely"
I want the Skins DVD all-series-box..

The fact that my undergarmet drawer wont close is kinda amusing. I like to have funny panties, frilly ones, strawberry printed, boy-cuts, hellokitty and naughty ones ( which are the most boring ones, everyone has thongs)
I need bras, but it makes me feel so old to buy them. And frustrating when the dont have my size.
I have a weird desire to take mr. iPhone with me to buy them, everybody has a bf who comes with them. I want a one too.

Jesse Schell at DICE 2010

Xbox 360 Games - E3 2010 - Guitar Hero 5

Think about that <3

Video Girl Addiction

When you are told to be HYPER-AGGRESSIVE you must be loved!

I want to skate, run and scream until there is some blood coming from my mouth - and I can smile
...then go to bed and wake up
and have a bf^2 .. as boyfriend and breakfast
and to eat cake or rather macaroons in different colours.

No alcohol to me, again

Let's dance to Joy Division

"A guide to love, loss & desperation"
Dunno, if I missed this feeling of "stress" - the sense of hustle and that there's no enough of time.
Exams, practise, final-exams and this Suosikki thingie, not forgetting pre-enter-what-ever jobs which must be posted to school before this month ends.
I need to do alot before this month ends.
Lucky I get a month rest after this - squeezeeeeeeee the juices
dispite of all this hurry and .. discomfort I want to feel mr. ipouni ( like naadde spells it) smell and hear. Blessing in disguise that he also need to work. Inspiring.

Bodycontrol. Thinspiration. Damn those poets don't help me!
Here comes the anxiety

It would be so easy to just starve and do the work - but when the zenith of your day is to have a hambuger and a fatty chai latte with him, you'll have to admit that you have feelings.
I actually don't mind at all gaining a -/+ 500g when hanging out with him - I like him so much it makes me insane!
Am I now totally pathetic? Hope the rainbows other end is in April
Last weekend when beeing drunk I almoust made it public, but didn't

Funny when you are the other woman, the other woman kinda makes your life harder. But you dont hers.

That was my Lo, theese are my lilies - yes they are beautiful, really beautiful! Screamed Humbert Humbert in a joyful manner after seeing Lolita, but while watching lilies.
I dislike the english Lolita, I still love the finnish one and still searching for it from antiquarian bookshops. I like the finnish Humber Humbert, he is so cracked <3

I want to feel like super stressed out of this workamout but instead it makes me laugh :3
I love lady gaga!
nothing to say.. going to party and blow my brains out with fun<3

You are a maneater

So though I don't have a TV at home it doesn't mean I dislike it - I really get hooked on it where ever and when ever I have a change on it no matter what it is streaming!
While my lil sis was on the computer I watched the finnish soap-opera "Salatut elämä" which is kinda depressing with nasty topics and quarreling..

Most of reality-shows are lame - but Steven Ward's "Tough Love" was enjoyable and actually instructive! Atlast the problem is not in men but in women, with ugly behaviour habits! (okay, 1st some of the women had in the show sooo disgusting fake-n-bake tans that can't even imagine! .. but which would look good on yamanbas)
The topic of the episode was about money usage and about how to be yourself in good policies.
I tend to scare away people because of my inconsiderate consumption, dominating conversation style and my table-manners, so starting from tommorrow I'll follow Steven's tips and start to be a nicer girl who is [DATEABLE!] *a stamp used in the show*

Starstrukk

It keeps snowing - which is kinda nice, this is amount of snow is unbelievable already! :D
picture above is my parent's backyard - and yes that fence is about 140cm high..
I'm pretty bored and the fact that I should be spending time between school books doesn't inspire me. Heh, bought weeks ago Der Mond btw.
Yesterday I bought this funny steamer to make baozi (steamed buns)
They came out pretty cute :3 tried two different types of looks.. I like the more round one as the other one just looks nasty... - well practice makes perfect.

There is a "sexuality on silverscreen" theme going in a nice old movie theater, Orion and planning to go watch following ones:
The Pillow Book 3.3
Akasen tamanoi: nukeraremasu 6.4
Pinku Eiga *lecture* 9.4

Now I'm just tired so I start watching Love and pop for the 34567th time.. and probably fall asleep :3

Tommorrow mr. iPhone is going to spend with me over 24h :oooooooo <3

Et ole lainkaan toivoton

Just watched w/ finnish subtitles Lost In Translation - which I know years old, but my sister happened to have the dvd now. Traveling-fever.


I instantly fell in love to the movie.
The feeling of being in such a spectacular place but not feeling anything because of not knowing who you are, where are you heading and would it feel any better to be with someone or just be alone?
Age difference
The moment when feeling jealous even you are not sure is it suitable and trying to hide it but failing.
The movie came pretty close to my current moods and thoughts.
Hell, I'm going to book flights to Japan for xmas and New Year's as soon as i'll have the money.
I want to laugh while ranning to hold hands when listening to the noise of pachinko machines.

Tommorrow I'm going to buy a bamboo steamer cause I was going to entertain myself by cooking baozi/siopao.

Guess I'm kinda miserable - because there isn't him saying I'm really not.
In my oppinion my hand fits over his chest just perfectly.

My ferret is like a bear.

MOE MOE KYUN~!

Oh this anime is so *LOVE* surely need to see this!!
I was today in the maid-training for Desucon :3 I met new nice people and smiled my cheeks numb <3
Yes, I'm still obsessed with mr. iPhone.
I wan't a new computer, I need to learn C++
OMG I LOVE MY LIFE!

you'll never get another fix

I'm STILL downloading myself

My word is good

Matt just sent me e-mail ^^ - let that be the sign to send out all theese packages, couldn't afford it for a while as they are pretty heavy.

I miss New York.
I miss adventure.

I have jumped to be in a relationship, or I like to call it one-and-a-half as there is still a half that can't be ignored.
Brain doping
Not sure anymore what to think about things, so I asked him to go with me to Shanghai!
Also waiting for tickets to NYC!
Guess this year really will be about travelling! Amsterdam, Bingen, NYC .. probably Shanghai..

Had this very same feeling last year when booked the tickets to NYC - guess future has something exciting to offer! Hope so! :3

Dreams, dreams, dreams

(listening to kawaii-radio)
Yesterday I spent my day in the building of Yhtyneet kuvalehdet - as been chosen to be one of those 10 teenagers going to make the May issue of Suosikki ( a local teen amgazine)
It was so nice to meet so idea-rich teens coming all-around Finland! Also it was nice to see what kind of people are behind the magazine, less than I thought which mean they are very hardworking! Plus they do 5(?) other magazines pointed to kids and teens.
Fist I thought the atmosphere would have been very stiff and boring - make it feel like a miljon hours.. but now it was very laid-back as we discussed the security and behaviour in facebook!
Got lot's of yummy food! <3
They teached how to deal with media and how to interview and be interviewed! I interviewd for example Anne Kukkohovi! Dunno is it HD televisions or what but in the end it wasn't so uneasy to be in the table with an celebrity, it was okay chatting and laughing!
btw... Tommy Lindgren is way cuter live than in photos!
Also I enjoyed working with the other teenagers, I soooo admire people who have knowledge in specific fields or have sooooo rich and fresh ideas! Also I liked their attitude towards evertyhing!
After we were driven to Virgin Oil Co. ( nom Riviera pizza and tiramisu) ^^ we took some photos and then parted.
I wanted immediately start my work >:B !!
but.. instead I moaned mr.Phone to come dowantowan to have McDo or cocoa with me!
.. he came<3 He smells so goooood I could die!

I screwed the math test, cause I was too late - what to do
games and a nap then math-->

Wonder why I stuck into songs that will play over 20 time at loop

You dont know what you are talking about

The comprehension test went very well I guess and it was sooner over than expected^^

I fell totally in love with the ImagineFX magazine, it's something I have been seaching and needing for my whole life! It's a magazine from heaven!
The magazine contains lots of necessary articles to read about making and techniques and has a very helpful DVD in every issue!
It displays a wide range of different kind of artist and their styles - but remains very newbie-friendly, nevertheless it surely gives some new perspectives to the professional readers!
I'm already waiting for the next Pin-up themed issue! :3

Today I tried to browse something about computers - yes I suck with them, dunno anything about them "What kind of computer do you have? - and please don't say a white one" - to figure out prices. I own two laptops, both half dead, the HP was bought by my dad's perfect "Big and expensive is good"-logic and the acer mini is just for IRC, naadde just fixed ubuntu it \o/
So enough with laptops ( HP is like the man in my bed as it works for wathing movies very well :DDD) my parents are getting me a computer and xbox ( if I wont buy it by myself) for graduating and b-day. ( Yeah I know other teens get driving-schools and cars or designer bags - but this is what I need and want, also my family isn't rich)
Naadde promised to help me to build up a satisfying workstation - looking forward to it as I know he's not one of those insane mac-people, which I guess is important as you can't buy long-life computer packages anymore you need to be able updating constantly the parts and with mac I guess it would be difficult and expensive nor am I familiar with the structure of macs... you know PCs atleast have buttons and wires to push, hit and reconnect!
My so poor and absurd thinking about computers!
Only things I know are the requirements: Lot's of RAM, speedy processor and a high-end graphic card and theese features are going to be searched and made suitable for a student economy (might be a slight challegne!)- by Naadde. And I'll just assemble it!
Just like ordering a dollfie! You want, someone paints and stich and you just gather it to one piece and play!

Well after I noticed the new ImageFX haven't reached Finland yet, I noticed someone glare at me. Dispite I try to be in a way or another in good terms with ex-partners of anyones, (more than my own ones... heh LOL) the results aren't always what I wish for.
Those dotty black eyes and her style which hasn't change after all theese years made me petrified. Usually encountering ex-partners (..of ex-partners) might be akward but you know that with a few laugh it lightens, but with this girl it has been about blackmailing and calling me with names - me of course having just a tail between my legs.
She came towards like for a prey and all I did was just look at her with a iffy grin on my face.
I took off my glasses just for in case.
-"Hello, Niki was it?" -"Yeah, hello", damn with her eyes they are so pushy and the darkness is just abusmal!
-" What are you up to?" -"not much, came to check one magazine", I mumbled
-"Me neither! You want to join me for food? You like sweets don't you?" Giving a smile waiting for an awnser.
.." this must be a trap" but with my survival instinct of course I went.
Suddenly we were walking in a biting cold, under witner sun her tiny hands on my elbow. She's so chatty.
It almoust seemed like she didn't remember anything of the past, but it was okay I enjoyed her company and really changed my image of her as a jealous brat. She's twentysomething, but still looks like that 18-year-old lost messy poet she used to be.
She told me that I was probably the most separable by looks in the line of the guy's girlpartners.
And it was probably my smile and skintone. I agreed.
Messy dark-dyed messy hairs with dark botton eyes, tiny thin girls.
We atleast shared the fact that we had grown up alot mentally.
"You don't still have much of tits but you surely have grown balls there!"
She looks like Chihiro from Spirited away.

Mr.Phone texts me as his Neko, I wonder is it suitable to twist a version for a dude?
Guess it's kinda cheesy.. but I kinda want to.

Generic

Väittäisin ettei paljoa ole tapahtunut
En päässyt Genies-joukkueeseen kun niillä oli ennestään jo päällisiä.
Yläpuolella mun Silver Surfer-paita ( AWESOME TUULETUS)
ja nokia 9230:n takakuori (aika deco-den ystävällinen kun tulee jo valmiiksi monet vaihtokuoret joita tuunailla)
Tykkään treenaa ja vatsalihakset on pumpattuna aina vähintään naurulla.
Tänään oon piirtäny pegasi-logo ehdotuksia - tai siis printti ideoita, joukkue vaatteet on aina nam!


Eilen päivällä käytiin naadden kanssa avaamassa Tiikerin vuotta ja ostin sille teepannun koneeni korjaamisesta.
Illalla kiukuttelin kuin pikkulapsi kun Hra. Puhisin ei voinutkaan olla heti silloin kuin oletin - niin naismaista ja lapsellista minulta.. En vain voinut kestää sitä että minun iloani kuluu kaljatuopin äärellä! Osasin laskea minuutteja aamu-lähtöönsä olettaen hänen menevän sillä niin järjettömällä säännöllisellä aamubussilla!
Ajattelin olla möreä, tuittupää, sen sijaan olin kuin piri-puudeli kun hän saapui ovelleni! Ja aikakin kului odotaessa katsomalla nauraen TBBT:lle!
Sitten me vaan pussailtiin, ja kerrankin kun piti jatkaa Ergo Proxyn katsomista - me jäätiin sängylle juttelemaan moneksi tunniksi! Kello oli kuusi aamulla kun ajattelin nukkumisen olevan paikoillaan.
En huomannut asuntoni öistä lämpötilan laskua.
"Enkö mä ole tarpeeksi komea", kuin kiivin palaset oisivat tanssineet suussani tajusin että olen ihan hulluna tähän rillipäähän!
Tuntui niin oikealta.
Aamulla en halunnut teeskennellä edes nukkuvaa, katoin rohkeasti kun hän meni ovesta.
Nakuna on vain liian kylmä seistä, ollemmehan sentään suomessa - kukaan täällä seiso alasti.

Olen saanut uteliaisuudesta kiinni ja asioiden ihmettely on niin ihanaa!

Rusinoiksi

Kun tulin kotiin tiesin että minun on ryhdistäydyttävä kuvanteon suhteen!
Minulla oli kuitenkin hoppu, ja sen hopun päämäränä oli oppia miksi en pidä ( ei ole hyvä olla pitämättä jostain koska se luo negatiivista ilmapiiriä, silti luettelen) :
- Sottaisista ihmisistä
- Huumeita runsaasti käyttävistä ihmisistä
- Ihmisistä jotka juovat sosiaaliseen jännitykseen
- Jotka tupakoivat haisevasti (emt työkaverit jotka polttaa ei lemua röökille, no tytöt polttaa tuoksuja)
- Kaikkia noita kolmen edellisen mainitun päihteen käyttäjien heikkoutta antaa sen vaikuttaa elämäntyyliin.
Ällöä.
Ehkä oon hienostelija mut silti.

Kysyin sämpylää leikkaavalta äidiltäni, onko poika liian vanha minulle?
"Eipä kai jos hän haluaa hyötyä jostain muustakin sinussa kuin naisellisista ruuminaukoistasi - kuten sinun pirteästä sähköisestä luonteestasi ja jos hän kestää energisyytesi!" Kerrankin äiti ei tuhahtanut ali-arvostavin ilmein kun selitin kuinka näin Hra. Puhisimisen aivokuvat ja hänen kiinnostuksestaan aivoista, peleistä ja PSYKOLOGIASTA!
Kysyin vaikka eipä sillä ole mitään väliä, taitaa olla ensimmäinen kerta kun oikeastaan kysyn äidin mielipidettä jostain jonka toivon raahaavani ihan elävänä joskus sen eteen. Ahdistan itseänikin, kun tajuan että mielikuvitukseni on ennättänyt näin pitkälle ihmisestä joka ei edes tiedä kuinka ihastunut olen häneen.
Hänen aivokuvien perusteella voi selittää hänen käyttäytymistään, minäkin voisin lusikoida aukkoa oikeaan aivolohkooni jos se tuottaisi samanlaisia tuloksia, tosin minut kuolleena lusikka aivoissa voitaisiin tulkita väärin.

On uutta että joku on samaa mieltä, tykkää samoista asioista ja ajattelee samanlaisista asioista samankaltaisesti kanssani, samalla kun hänellä on sen verran eriävät mielipiteet että, tuntuu turvalliselta. Tykkään ihmisistä joilla on hyvä maku ja faktoihin perustuva väittelykyky.
Olemme kuin parabeelin x pisteissä.
Hän nukahtaa nopeasti, nauraa ääneen elokuville, pesee siististi hampaita (minä en..) ja ei pidä imurin äänestä (kukapa mies nyt tykkäisi, tiskivedestäkin menee sormet rusinalle<3).
Juodaan teetä, syödään poptartseja ja katsotaan elokuvia.
Rakastuin xboxiin
Lounaalla söisimme spagettia
En jaksa mennä kouluun vaan menemme lyömään vatsaitamme yhteen ja tekemään kaikkea puoli hölmöä. Syömään pizzaa ja nukkumaan.

Hyvä ettemme ole aina kun voimme yhdessä, tämänlaisesta odottamisesta ehkä tykkäänkin - odotan uusien perhosten lepattelua vatsaani.

Love, love is like a stubborn youth
Love, love hides in a smoky light
And I can never find the truth
Boy, your touches leave me mystified
And I wish I could believe in you

vanukas kuvaus

Tiistai 9.2
Pääsin toimittamaan toukokuun suosikin muoti-osuutta! Uskon edelleen että kohdallani toimii pessimisesti odottaminen tai en odota ollenkaan mitään, sitten kaikki onnistuu!

Tuli katsottua hra.Puhimisen kanssa Little Miss Sunshine - se sai monenlaisia tunteita aikaseksi.

Tänä aamuna, tai olikohan se eilen (Nääs ajantaju on minulta viety) ovikellon soidessa, heräsin sydämmeni hakkaamiseen ja karjumiseen sisälläni vietettyäni jälleen yön design sohvalla. Keho oli kuin valveunen puuduttama enkä tiennyt uskallanko herättää poikaa, olisin nimittäin halunnut vain panikoida ja pukea vaatteita miten sattuu päälleni, sillä sekunnilla kuitenkin kehittelin mielummin idean itsestäni heti.. mmh jonkinlaisen peli-alan ammattilaisen yllätävänä vierailijana. Jotain valheella höystettyä hössötystä epämääräiseen olemiseen.
Se oli posti joka soitti kelloa, totesin etten olisikaan niin viilipytty, jos jotain kohtaamisia sattuisi.
Onneksi olen suhteellisen kiitettävä pika-huijaaja, muiden taitoihin en kuitenkaan luota
Tämä on ollut lähes viikko. Tuntuneet kahdelta päivältä.

Johtunee ehkä lääkkeistä, mutta sydämmeni koputtelee vieläkin mahdollista ulkoilua.
Onneksi huomenna on keskiviikko ja saan keskittää huomioni juna maisemiin.
En mieti enään taaksepäin, edessä taas on hieman sottaista - tulee sellainen uusi tunne että "minä vihaan siivoamista"
Jutut edessäni, jotka joskus järjestin kalenteriin ja koristelin värein on nyt pudotettu lattialle ja poimin ne siitä sitten kun joskus huvittaa.

Älä ota sitä vakavasti

Olen innoissani kun pääsen karsimaan Geanies-joukkueeseen \o/
Eipä tässä mitään.
Kun nukahdin pojan kanssa sen olkkariin jääääättimäiselle vuodesängylle (joka on ollut naamioituna viime päivät designsohvaksi) joskus kuudelta oli ok herätä yhdeltätoista.
Yleensä nukkuminen menee kivojen ihmisten kanssa pitkäksi mutta onneks oleminen ja koko yö meni pitkäksi.
En tiedä miksi se laittaa MTV HD:ta aina taustalle - taustalle siksi koska minusta tuo tykki valaisee kuvan miltei koko olkkarin seinälle.
Kävimme syömässä, ja kun törmäsimme Iraan joka asuu Pursimiehenkadulla tuli sellainen hinku asua myös jonain päivänä niillä Helsingin kulmilla. Vaikka heti täytettyäni 21!
Minusta tämä näyttää hieman pitkäveteläiseltä "true story" saippuaoopperalta ja vielä suomalaiselta sellaiselta, jossa päähenkilöllä (eli minulla) on aina se nössön rooli jolle katsojat karjuu ja kannustaa ruudun takaa.
No, kerranhan sitä vain eletään ja no muodostelma tämäkin. En vain ole niin varma että osaisin sanoa tämän suhteen "OKO MOIKKA SOITELLAAN", ja sitten hyppäisin muodostelmasta ulos.
Koen sen moninpuolin mielenkiintoiseksi, että jonkun pitää olla aina way over the edge vaikka kuinka yritän olla kunnolla! En juo niin säädämpä itseni tälläiseen tilanteeseen

Tänään törmäsin kuitenkin kirjaan, ja taka-kannen tekstissä sanottiin että kiltit ihmiset eivät ole tyhmiä vaan he ovat oppineet käyttämään harvinaislaatuista työkaluaan itsensä hyväksi. Onko kiltti ihminen siis hyvä?
Kai mä voin sitten tarkastella mun väliäni tuohon poikaan silleen että minä saan sitä mitä minä tahdon ja se voi tehä mitä lystää.
En ostanut sitä koska se vaikutti ympäripyöreältä.

Comicstripteasegirl

Zero sokerii, ZEROO.
Töissä kikattelevaa Tiinaa ja Annaa, rodeoo ja runebergintorttuja.

Kirjoitan suomen ja englannin kielen, sääli kun ei osaa mitään kieltä kunnolla..
Päätän aina sillä hetkellä mun äidinkielen kun sitä kysytään.

Hiukseni ovat nykyään vaaleanoranssit, ne on minusta ihan lystikkäät.
Söin reedin kanssa denniksessä must se on kivaa, se on mun Aleksanterinteatteria (mun balettikoulua vastapäätä)
mun tekee mieli sopertaa tähän pinaattikeittoa koska se on aika hyvää ja koska tänään oli varmaan miljoonas kerta kun voin todeta itselleni, että se pitää hyväksyä ettei ihmiset ymmärrä mun tykkäämisien päälle. Koska ei kaikki ole hyviä jossain, mutta musta mä oon. Edes vähän.
Yli-suolattu pinaattikeitto on musta hyvää.

Ja minusta on söpöä että jollain on kaksi pöytäkonetta vierekkäin - ja vielä silleen on ihan ok ja sallittua mun istua tässä. Ei yhtään silleen että olisin vain vallannut huonolla ryhdillä tälläisen hienon tuolin.
Mulla on lukulomaa, ja se on edennyt töissä ja kokeissa.
Ja tällä tavalla valvoen.

Jos ruoka loppuu ja seura haisee, en jaksa kattoa yhtä leffaa enempää.
Yksi ilta katottiin herra Puhisimen kanssa Maameren tarinat, run fatboy run, hot fuzz ja sitten vielä dokumentti elokuva, pelkän zeron kanssa.

Tajusin noin EHKÄ tunti sitten, en olisikaan halunnut olla kenenkään tutkimuskohde. Ehkä tälläkin "vastoinkäymisellä" on hyvänlainen vaikutuksensa.
EHKÄ, EMT ja IHAN SAMA

Ei suututa mikään, sen sijaan tahdon liikaa kaikkea ja pitkälti kaiken.
Jopa tämän pojan alakerrassa olevan liikkeen eläinpehmon, tietämättä onko se pehmoinen tai tuoksuisiko se edes hyvälle.

Mistä mä oon?

So as I'm into day by day more into gyaru thingies - I have decided to dye my hair fudge!! HOSH!
Tommorrow there's no more of red.
Yeah probably I'll start to looks super tanned, or darker... but I dont care .. for now :D
Theese girls are tanned too.. I'm just naturally darker..

Creepiest dream ever

It was mix of resident evil, paranoia agent and alice in wonderland..
Then I had suuuper heaavy guns to shoot and zombies after me and It ried to super tiny, then creatures burnt my friends and family in marketbags which was okay to them.. and made pies of them!
Then I thought I was hidden in a somekind of metalcave but it was a machine which started to spank me and there wasn't any change to escape!
Then when I dropped towards fire I got wings and continued running and "killing" zombies.
Running and crying in dreams makes you exhausted.

Ah I need to meet my friend!

Who got me few seasons of BBT for xmas present! <3

To make a face like my loves..

like Sheldon Cooper's <3
.. I need to ask, should I dye my hair "caramel"? Like ganguro/kogal/gyarus do?
Guess it's less a crime nowadays to have a darkerskin and light hair?

Milloin lakkaat pitämästä isästäsi liikaa

Kirjoitan nyt suomeksi, koska on harjoiteltava suomenkielen kirjoituksiin.

Ensinnäkin, minusta on hyvin kummallista kun pidän miespelureita vähän säälittävinä ja saamattomina. Niin minusta tälläinen kun herra J, joka ei edes puhu suomea vaan on jostain Washingtonista ja puhuu naisille kuin koirille - niin miksi sillä on aina niin paljon naisia, tai ainakin bileissä ja vielä sellaisia kivan näköisiä, itseäni mitenkään kehuskelematta.
En muista kuinka me päädyttiin pitämään niin kivaa, kai se oli se tilanne kun se repi minua hiuksista ja käskyili, samalla kun tuore tuttavuus tyttö järkyttyi ja nettikaverilla tipahti leuat lattiaan. Nettikaveri, poika joka oli pukeutunut kunnolla ja tarjonnut drinkkejä naisille jotka eivät lämmenneet. Ja kuinka kornia voi olla ottaa kännykkäkameralla kuvia naisten kanssa, mutta se on vain pisteitä pistetaulukkoon (siis kuvakansioon) naamakirjassa!
Sattunut ei ole mitenkään paha, vaan lähes huvittava kun tätä miestä näkee asiakkaana tai ohi mennen kun kävelee äidin kanssa ja se tulee siihen "behave!"
Ulkomaalaiset! Tai graafikot! .. Valokuvaajat!

En ole sittenkään varma mitä olen mieltä elämäntilanteestani.
On kyse sitten merijalkaväen sotilaasta sitomassa kenkiään, katoamassa miesten huutojen täyttämään käytävään.
Toimistotyöläisestä kolistelemassa brändivyön solkea, joka poistuu jättäen kalliin tuoksun.
Miehestä keräilemässä tietokone tarvikkeitaan ja valmistautumassa lähtemään luotani.
En ikinä nouse, koska vaikka herään siihen toimintaan toivon nukkuvani sen hetken yli kun ovi kaikuu yksinäisyyttä sen sulkeutuessa.
Tai sitten olen vain laiska.

Haluaisin käydä bileissä ja tavata jonkun. Sitten ei tarvitsisi enään haikailla kenenkään perään.
Tai sitten haluaisin vain löytää jonkun porukan johon ankkuroitua taas muutamaksi kuukaudeksi. Olen järjettömän ristiriitainen etten tiedä pitäisikö minun edes miettiä tälläisiä!
En pidä typeristä ihmisistä joiden kanssa tuntuu siltä että hukkaan aikaa mutta sitten haluan löllyä ihmisten kanssa.

Jos en olisi näin laiska muokkaisin ihmisten kuvista lempikohtia, tulostaisin sen ja menisin stockamannille ja ruiskuttaisin sitä miesten hajuvettä mistä tykkään tällä hetkellä koska joku tuoksuu sille. Mutta olen ihan laiska, pidän pullasta enemmän.
Se näyttää, tuoksuu ja maistuu parhaalle!

Käsilaukku onneksi antaa suunnan sen sisältö kertoo paljon tytöstä, siellä on koulukirjoja ja cheerleading-vaatteet. Ei yhtään poikaa.

Mr.Jones

(warning: whine whine whine)

Yesterday some balett and went to see some Picasso with Aleksi, and some Chai Latte<3

Today I should get a new phone, Nokia is a lil bit ;___; OH BLACKBERRY WHEN WILL YOU COME TO FINLAND!?!?

from Iphone mr. Jones sounds better.
Screw this situation I'm ready to give up. After counting I have wait for men over 24 hour all together.. And those are only the times I remember.
So when talking about waiting fo not a week or a month but a half year to YEARS.
Jesus.
I need clubbing to shake my butt like they have brains of their own.

Arctic Fox

I love old people smiling with their wrinkled faces
The crusty edges of strawberry pies, blood red jam
Teacher's "good!" signature in my exam

"Why did you awnser sounding so helpful. Feeling like swallowed waxcrayons when I stopped to read a sms months ago in aim to delete them. This won't be a "take-me-back", this is an indication of my immaturity and admitting my apathy towards your very kind heart and good intentions. I wish to carry my computer to your endless hands, like Will brought her marmot to Caleb in one comic, in trust youll fix it. Your perseverance with anything is admirable.
Endless is also your working building which I passed last week with numerous windows to see you in a collared shirt. Keeping my eyes straight forward to not see you.
Thougthlessness of mine led to that sickening smoke and made me left you.
You thought me having someone else. I was too shamefull to return to you anymore.
My life was just perfect with you and somehow there was parts of puberty not fullfileld - which I didn't control.
Not blaming anything outer, I know all is my fault.
It wasn't enough to dye your bathroom with my pinkhaircolour when showering there.
Nor was the fact of your endless kindness towards me.
Brat.
Crying in the embrace of my blanket. To imagine your endlessness would embrace this pathetic pile of furore fractional.
A letter with splash stains you believe are caused by rain.
Against rules of cyborgs I'm gratefull to you. And wish to you all luck to your life!"

Wearing only a shirt, panties and brand new white-red striped socks trying to smell some one in my bed makes me feel so rueful!
When will be my turn to be squashed?
This has last about 3 weeks and I'm already weary!
It's probably the first time I know exactly why to wait something to happen.
Or why do I have to wait for it.
a deceitful amout of acuriosity arousing factors and exploitating my obsession towards him - this isn't going to end in any time soon.
I have always wanted to die fast, and this feels slow!

Colour my love

So today I walked my way again to my parent's place.
I need to rush soon to the bus so I'll made this a quick one.

TODAYS LOVE:
- George Kamitani
- Timo Vihola
- Hyung-tae Kim

I wish my life would be drawn by theese guys

Games: Muramasa : The Demon Blade

Daddy, I need consoles

Open your heart to me!

I think this CheerMix-radio is an insane idea and makes me hyper :D

\o/ -2kg ! Awesomeness!

Yesterday my parent's came to my place and my dad repaired my washing machine.
Eating and tea with my paren'ts <3

Then went for cheerpractise - Damn I still love my team! Made some liberties and fitneestests.

Went home for a while, to wait mr. iDenwas to finnish his pokerevening - but as it wasn't arranged we met earlier as planner ^^
8 hours talking and talking, eating chocolate and pizza!

Today madet he PP-presentation and this evening is going to be spent among my Breakpoint work and Open Gym

Marie-Antoinette, let's be favorites!

Bought yesterday the Marie Antoinette, starring Kirsten Dunst. (it was on sale) The movie itself seemed to be endless and it was dispite of all the glorious dresses and lifestyle, pretty blunt. I know it is kind of a documentary but all the cuttings and "let's put some modern music here and there just so there will be something original.." didn't warm me.
But I think Kristen Dunst and others (not men), were extremely beautiful.
It made me drool for macaroons.
If your man is bad in bed - go shopping and have a orgy with lots of sweets!<3
Let them eat cake

Balett and snautsers

Boring school day.
English is okay, but with math it's the same am I listening or not - I study things thru at home.
Then went to my favorite library to do some homework.
The went for a search of a book about doing latex/plastic cloths but didnt find anything.
But I bought this book "Hell Bound" which incluedes dozens of contemporary art works with a dark twist.
I was in one bookstore near the library, an you can sit there and have tea. I was in a hurry so didn't bother to make a cup. Then I felt something sniffing my leg, it was a dog and I went totally " ahaa there's a little fellow!" then the WHOOOOOOOLW dog came under the table and it was about a middle size snautser and I was petting it and so happily kissing and so - then a boy was laughing and I totally blushed. Silly me didn't even ask permission to touch his dog - but he seemed to be okay with it. The boy wasn't that cute nor was the dog - but as a copule they were super cute!
Then I went for a ballet class which was love! I feel myself very muscular which isn't so feminine as balett in the other hand is.. but I had fun!
Today I collect some material for my work and tomorrow I'll fix the dress, clean up and get ready for the weekend.
Also I could make a entry about things I have bought lately :3

Yay, mr. iDenwa is coming back tomorrow \o/ I like him with short hair

Delio Dimaculangan and Jason Veron Marasigan Francisco

(left Jason,right Delio)
I have never been a fan of Big Brother-reality tv format... but this Pinoy BB Double up is soooo much different from the finnish one!
In finnish BB there's bunch of people, majority no-lifer with no goals or deeper intelligence of anykind (which gives a picture that most of finnish people are like that - which is *not* true). Most of the time, if not being drunk, they talk shit about each others, whine and complain - or sound in many ways lazy.. Also casual sex is a popular activity which I consider disgusting.
So after you finish with your fame in finnish BB I think you have lower your changes to get a job or you have a permanent stamp on your forehead for attentionwhoring in such a inappopriate way. So I think it's hard to earn any respect from people.

Well, to Pinoy BB.. my parents are hook with it and it has lasted already for ages!! Guess something around 100 days! So I have been forced to watch it..
As The Phillipines is a heavely religious country - the fact has an impact to the show.
For example, sex is banned ( i guess) and if someone encourages others to smoke or drink - the Big Brother might moralize you and usually punnish people for misbehaving.
Like, when Kaitlin came and had some alcohol, and some people got "too drunk" BB punnished some of the housemates for "not giving a good image"
and teached them something like "you can't blame some liquid, but the person taking it"
Also people show their real feelings and thoughts - and theres some romance going on and it's cute.
There's sound effects and more camera views than in the finnish one.
The most important difference: There's lot's of activity! They do charity and work together in very creative ways! They play games!
Even reality shows are ment to entertain only just with the possibility to stalk others -to pinoy bb there's some really funny people chosen! In finnish version ._. they do boring tasks and complain and whine and it feels like they'll do the same task for the first 30 days! Also the people dont usually have any interesting backgrounds or view of life.

Above, is pictures of Jason and Delio.
I think Jason is cute, but he is lazy and too shy - but still so awwww!! He is nice and kind to his crush <3___<3 holdinghands is soooooo *giggling...*
Delio is my favorite, sad he already got voted out.. He is so kind hearted and sweet! And suuuper cute!!! <3______________<3 and he is a cook!
For the record: Delio is cooler than Jason! <3
(mommy told me he is too old for me :< 26.. naaah :D:D:D:D:D: and yes I go always saying when I have met someone nice "MOMMY I'M GOING TO MARRY HIM TOMORROW!)

Не верь, не бойся, не проси

(left a picture taken 2 years ago)

School still tastes good and I should probably apply as a substitute teacher to my old elementary and high school :P
Today spent only 2 classes at school - and went to the vocational school for lunch with Aleksi who studies there ( yeah, I actually do too)
He seems to be very modest when saying "Sorry to seem like a big brother but.."
I think he kinda is, a big brother ( and he is even older than me so it would be possible) but just a pinch of something better!!
Hope he wouldn't be so worried about me anymore - just bacuse I dont practise my iron fists I have my steel-toe boots! >:B
Today I felt almoust annoyed as I kinda wanted him only for me and be just together, but then dunno what went to me. I was tired.

Afters school went home for a possible hope with my washig machine, my dad promised to fix it but I know him for being very busy atm .__.
My cosplay wig is waiting in the post-office \o/

Then got everything ready to design the dress on a puppet.
Evening spent again in evening school at Ressu among math and russia - and saw one guy from who I should get still some of my stuff so it would be totally over, don't you just hate it when the other one is so stuck (or you think so) that you don't know even how to act for your own good anymore?

Tomorrow: school, pile of homework and balet. Weekend promises a bunch of people and whom I have been missing<3

I wanna be your girl

Today I felt tired again - sleeping in public transport, the feeling was welcome.
We had an substitute at math class whom I had to explain thing :D "Dunno anything about this field!" -"pardon teacher, it's on page 21 - it sf means.."

Then I went to the central for some time with mr. mystery iDenwa-san before he had to go in a conference or such in London. We hopped to a finnair-bus it was fun cause never been in one before! ^^
3nights and 4 days seem to be forever..
I think for theese last 6 months that has been spent just by fooling around with cheeseballs - preassures me to improve myself to be nice!
Too strong feelings inside so little time, he got the timing right..
This is stupid and wont profit at all - but it feels so good ._.
It's almoust too ridiculous how my imagination rolls and expands! .. when thinking about him.
I had theese same feelings probably in age of 13 or so - having dreams that wont realistically come true, but conjured a smile on my face.
Be your girl (by Chieko Kawabe) -feeling

I ate at school - for along time, but spaghetti casserole sounded too interesting!
When eating alone in a long table and stearing how some girls sound like hens when screamind, (partly cause of their ethnic background,) about some guy last weekend - I state me being right when I explained to one dutch scener how some people, especially some geeks have an "idiot/stupidity/I wont profit of him"-detector.
Learned it years ago, that hangging out with jerks wont make your life happier, he told me.
mmh.
Mikko asked for my number and I'm kinda happy that maybe some day there's a possibility going have fun with the 2nd year guys ^^
Although I felt this weekend how scared I really am to go out without knowing with who to hang out there or what to do with those people, what to talk about.

I bought some fabric for my SMFR-party dress, plain grey hard cotton to match my officer hat.
Wish my shoes will arrive via mail ASAP ^^

needs to loose more weight quickly!! Almoust slipping to fasting but when knowing it's not a good idea strictly avoiding it! >:B

Beethoven Symphony No.9

Hi! Please forgive my presumptuousness and abruptness. Even though you do not know me right now, I still want to be confident like you and tell you: I like you! You have the right to refuse my love, but you cannot show contempt for my love, because that is a heart that is sincerely beating for you.

I saw this photograph of you on the internet, and over the past few days, I’ve been paying attention to you more and more. Unwittingly, my obsession and adoration towards you became like the water in the Chang Jiang [Yangtze] river that comes from the sky and rushes swiftly out to the sea never to return [his attraction and love was unstoppable, could not be reversed ]!” Falling in love with you is my biggest glory, and a mediocre life from this point on is no longer ordinary. At this moment, any beautiful language is unable to express the obsession I have for you. That pure-hearted smile has already been deeply fixed in the center of my heart. It is almost time for your flight, so here I will first wish you a nice trip!

Also I just want to tell you: First is that I like you, second is also that I like you, and third is still that I like you…I like you…

Your little princess is my little whore

Ah got and incredible offer!! And I was listening to this .. and now I'm trying to work my ass off to Breakpoint and all demoparties this yeas >:D

how this song is related.. ? it's inspiring!

Oh HAI!

So this morning I woke up again slowly and feeling fine, walked my way to my parents home and made a card for Arlyn. But I didn't go to the party cause I forgot my party-top home ._.

Today was so nice going back for training! I did miss all my team-mates and ARGH JUST COOL! I love my coaches!!
First of all, I got a x-mas present ribbon ^^
2nd we did and awesome pyramid! :D
Usually I'm a terrible sissy and afraid of trying anything. But my coaches have tought me - just by showing their attitude - "try, practise and you'll learn it".
So when I least trust on myself, I just look at their faces and courage BOOST 2000X !!
Also the attitude of your team mates is also important - everybody working for the same goal <3
3rd I really want back to practise! I need to work hard outside training hours too!
Even you are tired after school or work, going there and seeing all those funny girls! Then for warm-up we usually play some different kind of tag, like fruit tag or "who is scared of the blackman"-tag.. and I usually become breathless by just laughing so much during the games :D

Heart beat, beats the cold

Yesterday I spent only one class at school cause of feeling so dizzy ready to throw up.. wonder if it's migraine or something.
Well the condition couldn't be helped and had to finish my schoolwork the whole afternoon.
Also had to do shopping with my mom - It overbears me when she wants me to wear something more like "the others" and don't like her "oh yes yes yyyyeeees" sayings when I might like some piece in a "normal store" - like I'm not shopping there normally? -.-
I'm not *that* different afterall.. but still it makes me feel uncomfortable when my own mom goes "you should see how X:s daughter.." " you should start buying same cloths as your sister.."
I bought a mint-blue marvel-college from 12y/o boys department for 3euros and I'm going to wear it cause it's comfortable and I LIKE THE COLOR AND IT HAS DUDES FIGHTING!

I dont want to seem stupid or needy but really theese made me laugh to myself:
1. Dont put a carpet into a washing machine even it fits inside - it's not the same thing with a bathroom carpet.. First, all the shreds jammed the machine 2nd the carpet is totally destroyed!
2. Dont put toothpaste into your eye, especially ones with "freshing christals" so when you make-up in bathroom make sure the surface is clean. I totally failed to get toothpaste on a bug brush which whipped also accidentally my eye..

Met mr.iDenwa and was kinda disappointed as some guys couldn't say anything off-track about him.. and by that i mean things like "he was the ex-minister of vietn kong" or "he killed gorillas bare hands in Russia!"
Hanging out and so.. Corona and so. Learning things and so. My internetZZZ is still borueken.

btw listening to:
I *love* this!

This is a secret and my suspicions about things behind his words might be true - or then he is just saying. I dare to claim that we are very alike and when I was saying things like that .. I know how complicated the situations really can be and it's more easy to accept it as I have gone thru it. In the other hand as a selfish-tiny-super-spoiled-brat the thought that can't have what I want hopefully teaches me something.
Maybe this won't be so serious, maybe I'm wasting my time (because if there is a end or another start it's not going to happen in a week or month, this is the weird part of dating older guys: month is like nothing to them " I call you next week", for me it's an eternity!!)- but atleast enjoying the time?
We have only one life and why not.

Today cheerleading practise for a long time! Then Arlyn's birthday.

Also I'm in a quest to find the original novel of Love & pop and Tokyo decadence - which go with names "Topaz" (topazu) and "Topaz II" by Ryu Murakami.. what to do..

JU VANA TATS MI TUU

Narcissistic features have started growing inside me.. maybe.
I like the guys who surrounds me at math class they are fun to listen and .. so kind! :3
"Give me a five!" he said after I flaunted of my 4 row of 10's ( same as A+)

I met my new social worker and it kinda bothers me as it's not so amusing to explain my past 3 years again and again to someone new...

In the evening I went to my first russian lesson and impressed the teacher by greeting and intoroducing myself in russian ^^ also the math class was nice!

My financial situation is so good that I was thinking to visit a hairdresser inside a week!
I was planning to get ..a... emoish "scene queen" cut? .. maybe!
Also pondering to try a fudge coloured hair.. but it wouldn't probably go with the cut ( I would look like a troll :D)

Tomorrow more school and mr. iDenwa ( i'll change this if some better comes along)

Tea in a glass with milk

(above a picture of my favorite movie, Oldboy)
Just came from gym working my ass off literally but I hunger for chocolate. ARGH.

Me and my mom went to the university entrance information.. thingie yesterday.
Everybody tells how challenging it's to get into medical school ( they take 20% of who applies), but to study psychology they take only 3,97% or to study fashion less than 7% ...
I have goals to acchieve and 38points of 210 because of my laudatur in psychology but -- more reading ... for a couple years IF I get in.. *sigh* but then I need to focus on why it's so important to complete my studies. ( Usually I think of my dad and his childhood - that's a good ass kicker)
Among behaviourscience and fashion studying, 3D animation and anything related to animations would be fun too.. Sad all of those wont fit under one roof.

I'm an average student - but nowadays I have been feeling like a swor especially in english and math course 5 ... Wtf for those continual moments for akward silence after someone asks something stupid! ( there's no stupid questions only stupid people asking)

.. now mentioning that, I do feel free to ask details and almoust act stupid ( or I just feel like one ) with a guy whom with I been lately spent time. He didn't even finish highschool - which makes his source of common knowledge more interesting. For example he reads cognition sciences just for fun!
you'll just rip their last remains of manlyhood!
after few experience with boys, I think manlyhood is better found from between your ears than in pants.
I rather chat with a male person hoooours about - snow and about neurobilogy than.. have sex with a hyped cock ( nani, was it attached to something?)..which will disappoint me and wont teach me anything but "Don't listen to the oppinion of demoscene guys about.. sizes"
I CAN HAS Revy attitude towards sex: I wont benefit, why bother

As my man hate is soaring - this one guy is getting more cooler in my eyes day by day!
I could claim that the reason for why we come along so well is INTERNETS.
First, we get known thru IRC - cool and lots of things in common!
2nd, as I was in a phase where I saw in every male person the most retarded living creature ever which needed a mother - he comes around and saves the man image!
Also he reminds me of Timo which calms me and I can't think anything else than "cooolcoolcooolcoolcoolcoolcool!"
Then okay I fed him pizza, ( BUT I'm a teenager that's normal to me..) but he took me to a nepalese FOR LUNCH, geeeee.. cool.

Then age difference.. I think it's not a issue anymore, but dunno if there's still something twisted. Well hell does anyone care as long it's legal? ...and as long the other one isn't a total conservative ( cough like usually) Dunno is it classified as abnormal like, a fetish!.. or is it normal but I just go to the extreme?
Maybe I just like intelligent people! n_______n

I got the latex/rubber Man laugh.
Wood strawberry joghurt is the best!
I want a iPhone.

Birthday and schools

This year I'll be sooooooooooo old ._____________________.
Should I have a pary with my graduation as they have almoust the same day?
Should I go for Heltech AV ?

About favorite movies

We watched this with naali monts ago - this is sooooo scary and..... dunno sick.
Not my favorite but one of them... I should be sleeping but I want to keep this feeling :3

but this is

FUA-KIN!!

Ah a weard school day behind again - they go so fast as I know this is my last period in highschool ever.. if i wont count my japanese studies!

What features do you need?

It's so amazing how even your movie-history is same-alike...
Wonder how does he judge movies does he say "that's buullllll shit" or "hmm I like the colours, but I didnt like the plot".. I prefer for the last one.
I need someone with a large vocabulary tobe used with open mind

2009 Thanks giving

So we went for thanksgiving with my parents to sweden with bunch of other asianpeople :3


Me and my Dad, mom on cam

Bird nest

waiting for the train


Dogs in train<3

My new crush Cocacola light<3

My dad's snacks... 15boiled eggs...


Cinnamon apple chips

Cabin windows



Ginger bread cookies


My new pants

In Sweden the buildgs have ears :D

Calendar: 2nd-5th of April Allowed to Drink [x]

So I am going to BREAKPOINT 2010 !!! \o/ ..and with an entry or two..
Below some 2009 pictures


I re organized my home - theese pics are from the past style - forgive me the mess I decided to take pictures after already getting messy with changing places of thingsAbove: The wall of my alcove, I made it my working corner - and now there is more hats and collars!



above: upgrated the wall with yummy boxes


Sceneclub menu in the fridge BEEEEERUUUU:DD
Thinspiration: I need to get in shape - not loose weight but shape - getting chubby ._.

Chili sprouts!<3

Aleksi was dancing in a bar...

Finally got my Crazyfactory order!!<3
3x navel piercings
Hypno balls<3
5 x Tongue piercings
1x 4mm acrylic tunnel
2x 5mm acrylic tunnels ( I thin those seethrus are nice<3)
2x 6mm acrylic tunnels
and a colelction of 8mm tunnels <3 ( one negative thing: the tunnels with diamonds - the blings are different size..)