women's magazine

now i'm not jealous to people anymore who have that one and only friend circle.
I have one where people wont walk a mile - they'll take the taxi.
One which has a guy carrying his xbox and we walk over puddles and try to talk.

People who bath in brand perfumes
Then people who smell like candy cause they have long baths in candlelight

121 - Ja miten kävikään

I placed another 1,6 to my ear resulting a 4.1mm tinymous n__n
I ate lunch with Aleksi it was nice to see him for a long time!
Yesterday evening I spent in secco Wonders of Wasteland, made a bracelet and a couple of keychains.
Then I head to Espoo.

Seeing him forcing a 10mm thru his ear, ment me something to witness it.
Bathing and talking. That's what teens are supposed to do. Humbla.

It's boring it's for people maybe visiting me - the furnitures around my house not so practically
Decided to rumble my appartment around, exactly as I wish it to be
Working place to a corner and bed near kitchen.
Breakfast in bed, imagination going wild in a corner.
Also I got fascinated of chiles and tomatoes, growing things in general so I'm going to fix something for them :3

HEY UNCLE SAM AND NISHIMURA!

I decided that, depending of I can have any company - I'll go to japan, if not I'll go to New York.
Or dunno really it depends of the money situation but now .. i'll save it and try to make it on spring or summer!

Innoncence Taken

It's again the end of a school period - feels more confident than the last one .. more and more
I dropped spanish and took a japanese course to the 4th period it's going to be a nice end for my high school career I think :3

This weekend I have been working and being in Espoo, Kivenlahti at Eitsi's and Mimmi's place.

4-days-in-row
I needed, yearned for this
Me in a winter coat, in a cold taking a public transportation to somewhere new like every fall but promissing myself this will be different.
Enjoying to just sit and watch people
to hold the most funniest tiny cat ever met.
Then there are boys that you can't say 'no' to.
The minty light and not having much on but still smiling and staring each others just felt right and the best ever in the world every touch trembels on my skin and all I really want is his smile and his voice.
Flattering words.
Couldn't say anything but let my smile tell you what I think.

And Sanna is so awesome.

Be Your Girl

Lately it has felt okay to be into anime and cosplay again :3

Yesterday I met one anonym guy in Kamppi and we went to Kaisla for a couple.
First I thought Kaisla is place for dead-old-trees but then I understood why he liked to go there, I like it too!
I think it's cool to meet guys that are so stylish and unique - speaking straight and open.
Read the Game, have black and white shoes.
Showing magic tricks.
Had fun especially after suffering for weeks thinking to hang out with some one who is in the same age as me.
And it was so nostalgic to be in Kamppi "late" and being like "I walk you, NO I WALK YOU... to your bus" and the feeling that you are still excited to meet someone!!

Today I'm going to meet his cat as he lives near to my parents and probably sleep tonight with Didi<3

Error or nostalgia

As people that with who I was more contact in the age of 15 - are coming back
as are my past time hobbies - jpop and cosplay.

I'm going to meet Eitsi this week, and do tons of home work - also to do work for my cosplayoutfits

Yeah I'm going to Bakacon and desucon :3 in Yoko Littner's and Kasane Teto's outfit <3

It won't kill you

There has been recently dozens of situations where I have had to eat my words.
"I never will... ", "it will be okay for me if..."

No, yes, no, yes - and learn it in a ugly situations.

Lastest: I thought that it won't ever be a problem that I would date a person whose style difference alot from mine. I'm not political, religious and I don't care other peoples using what ever they are using as long as they don't push me to do it.

There's always guys, usually in bars, that can up to me and flatter my hair be suprised about my piercings - in a positive way. But then out the bar they won't handle my looks.
I'm jealous of my workmates relationships, they like red and black, shoes or they have a dog and guinnea pigs!
I or who ever I'm dating have one thing in common - internetZ.

Maybe it's my thing but - pfffffff. It's been a while when I listen to the same music with someone that we both like ( expect my workbebes<3), or had someone talk about art, ferrets or how cool could it be to eat pizza in the middle of the night at the play-grounds' buildings roof?
Or just run crazy only in sweat pants?

I miss people that can see underneath and who aren't superficial.
Crap I just seem to be the reason why I don't have them around me anymore.

Atleast when I come to work that couple shifts I work in a month - it makes me remember how cool especially the grrrllls are, the have their own oppinons and stick to them no one seems to be on their way.
And I'm lousy -super lousy - compared to them.
I want to be feisty too!

I want to feel also 'it LOVEE DESU' what my mind lacks - but I know it's not there where I want it to be.
And the fear that it's history or it's is some where in past "In my youth".
Even our career conselour went " ihihihihi you could get married in 2 years"
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
OR OKAY I want to get married, but hell.
If it means that I'll live in a warm place with someone super-nice who likes chocolate and animals - And who accepts me like this. Maybe likes to even try fingerpaints.

And doesn't replace sex with porn.

ps. kuva ois kiva

dancing with myself

She's cute she's cute...... x 30 000 001
omg.. She looks like an alive dollmore-doll!! Can't get over it!
And she spoke, to me, spoke!!!
Cutest voice ever.

Yesterday we got our univorms - cutest univorms ever!<3 .. and ribbons!!
Also I asked if Antti want to come with me to an extended weekend to Berlin.
Have a good feeling about this :3 I want to travel with him even though, the places where I want to sit and drink hot coco aren't his type - but you can always try something new right? ^^

Today some work, tomorrow to Espoo central and some coffee with Waily.
Weekend work and the Golden Spirit fallshow ^^

I have a feeling everything is okay again.
Mania-phases + flow+ love+ sugar = happiest Neko ever!

Looked good from here

I think she was right, others want only the sex and only dating with all that relationshipdramas( cough CRAP cough) from the differents sexs
But I think it's okay, it's not wrong.

I have a panic to get this Matt's peresent done.
Reaaaaallllly I'm into waiting some artdudes coming to Finland - even it's not official even that we are ever going to see but dreaming and planning is cool neeh?

Also I mailed one tattoo artist <3

oh-my bi-polar bears

I counted yesterday how much I have to earn in one month to get the money together.

2010 is only for tiny trips, If I could really make it to Atlanta in few months?

So whiny feeling you wouldn't understand!!
I miss New York! GD! It's cold and boring here. People are on my way when I get out of the metro, people are moody, nothing suprising in shops (expect in cybershop<3)
It doesn't make me happy to go to fancy departmentstores (yeah if you can compare stockmann to bloomingdales, not really, but trying hard)
Okay I love cooking and cheerleading, but there will be a lack of demoparties too this winter...
(which is actually good so I concentrate to school, but ..*whine whine*)

I believe suffering badly from somekind of maanis-depressive condition but as long I think so, I don't - cause that kind of people might not notice it by themselves.

Now I'm just badly in to gather some money and into baking cupcakes - and cheerleading