If I would get a dog now, he/she would probably named either Optimus or Prime :DD Or Marshall! ( like one SGfriend of mine who lives in Tennesee) Sounds hero like.
Yesterday, I didn't feel any connection with Aleksi. It was almoust like going to movies alone - but paying for two tickets because his chipcard wasn't working (like he would offer the other one anyway, like on a date..)
Why do I always say yes, I would rather said "No, can't afford it now"
PLUS it was shown in the screen13 so it was small, I had to get out in the end because I had to pee.
Huh I tried to drool the univorms of the soldiers but didnt work had to get out.
Then I started to miss nice people; the kids in Phillipines, Sara and Shawn ( should stop writing about him LOL)
..But let's rewind to the part of the day I was still happy and optimistic!!
I woke up early and finnished my paintings' background. More white next time.
Then I went home ate some melonsalad with my mom and then got ready to practise.
Cheerleading feels good again and my teammates are awesome! But still I feel myself a "extra piece" because of my height (the shortest one so I dont have a basepair) - well If I can't make it to the nationals squad I'll just do my best what ever I can do along them. ^^
.. I wish schools would start already the first period sounds so great "math, sex education and TWO ART COURSES <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3" and finals of psychology and sex education!
.. This weekend it's all about working <3 I love Cybershop! And then I'll get my Nintendo DSi and convert rest of my salary already to dollars (so I wont spend it) :3
It's getting exciting!!
ps. there is a huge zit in my right nostril, and it keeps just swelling, actually the nosehole starts to look smaller cause of it :D It's funny but disgusting.
Biyernes, Hulyo 31, 2009
Miyerkules, Hulyo 22, 2009
It can't be about me me me without thinking the team!
.. our coaches told us yesterday. Giving me a very guilty feeling as having a fever in last practise, and not training among the others.
I'm feeling again about quitting, just can't give the things that being in competive team needs.
Short -tiny- I should be a flyer, but I don't want to not flexible enough nor light weighted.
I need to go to work.
But I want to do sports, cheerleading is love - but is this going to be too much for me now?
Fall isn't going to be any better: trip to U.S, finals, work - like shieeet, need to pay my bills with something.
I was thinking going to a beginners team or so.. can't believe that's the awnser.
What should I do.
Coaches are serious, everybody is,
and I have a fever - I'm a bad me me me person.
but I did think about Aleksi, my bestfriend, if he starts to go to contemporary art meetings - I should make my way out of "doing nothin" phase.
or is this a hint "concentrate in your school?"
I'm feeling again about quitting, just can't give the things that being in competive team needs.
Short -tiny- I should be a flyer, but I don't want to not flexible enough nor light weighted.
I need to go to work.
But I want to do sports, cheerleading is love - but is this going to be too much for me now?
Fall isn't going to be any better: trip to U.S, finals, work - like shieeet, need to pay my bills with something.
I was thinking going to a beginners team or so.. can't believe that's the awnser.
What should I do.
Coaches are serious, everybody is,
and I have a fever - I'm a bad me me me person.
but I did think about Aleksi, my bestfriend, if he starts to go to contemporary art meetings - I should make my way out of "doing nothin" phase.
or is this a hint "concentrate in your school?"
Martes, Hulyo 21, 2009
Did you ask for hot cocoa?
So back in Finland. It's so silent and so much less people around me! :o
The trip from phillipines via Abu Dhabi and Heathrow was okay but we had one suitcase missing again.. but it came the very same day.
I really want to spend a holiday in Abu Dhabi - it seems to be inhabited by arab royalties only, and facilities to their needs. For example the Etihad airline, is sooooo fancy in side that you can't believe sitting in a tourist class!
Yesterday I already hang out with Aleksi and he adviced me to get rather a Nintendo DSi than a PSP. I was pretty suprised there wasn't so much games for psp in shops o_O
There was so much cute games in my taste for Nintendo DS that I think I'm going to buy one! <3
The trip from phillipines via Abu Dhabi and Heathrow was okay but we had one suitcase missing again.. but it came the very same day.
I really want to spend a holiday in Abu Dhabi - it seems to be inhabited by arab royalties only, and facilities to their needs. For example the Etihad airline, is sooooo fancy in side that you can't believe sitting in a tourist class!
Yesterday I already hang out with Aleksi and he adviced me to get rather a Nintendo DSi than a PSP. I was pretty suprised there wasn't so much games for psp in shops o_O
There was so much cute games in my taste for Nintendo DS that I think I'm going to buy one! <3
Linggo, Hulyo 12, 2009
Sooo manyyyyy
Yesterday I played 2 boardgames and held a water color session Trisha 9 and Paolo 7 .. until 11am.
Then there is Brian 14, DJ 16, Carlo 8 and JP 8 in the computer shop.
Then in the evening there comes Basti 5, who seems to be into dinosaurs and PSP. (yeah and I played with Action men in age of 5..)
They nicely play dota and other computer games and then try top teach me too.
Basti is so cute :DD
*basti keeps weird noises*
mom:what is that
basti: im a flying lizard
mom: (thinking some ones bullied him) Who says you are a lizard ?
basti: there is lots of us! *continues keepeing noises and saying he is a * a long latin dinosaur name*)
I thought I dont like kids, but i seem to get well with them :DD
Before I felt asleep Basti comes to me .. "is my mommy here" I say no "Okay, then i'll say to granny i rather go home". But he nicely falls asleep around midnight.
Then in the morning I wake up when the door is opened. Basti: "where is my dinosaurus, or it's bones" (i gave him a dinosaur rock, but I said to him to wait his father to help him so I hide it)
then i continue sleeping few moments later :"is my dinosaur here yet?' I awnser "let's ask your dad when he comes" and finally wake up.
Then Pauline 4, comes in the afternoon and just drops her yaws when seeing my hair "PIIINKKKK!"
Kids are cool ^^ Happy ones especially
Then there is Brian 14, DJ 16, Carlo 8 and JP 8 in the computer shop.
Then in the evening there comes Basti 5, who seems to be into dinosaurs and PSP. (yeah and I played with Action men in age of 5..)
They nicely play dota and other computer games and then try top teach me too.
Basti is so cute :DD
*basti keeps weird noises*
mom:what is that
basti: im a flying lizard
mom: (thinking some ones bullied him) Who says you are a lizard ?
basti: there is lots of us! *continues keepeing noises and saying he is a * a long latin dinosaur name*)
I thought I dont like kids, but i seem to get well with them :DD
Before I felt asleep Basti comes to me .. "is my mommy here" I say no "Okay, then i'll say to granny i rather go home". But he nicely falls asleep around midnight.
Then in the morning I wake up when the door is opened. Basti: "where is my dinosaurus, or it's bones" (i gave him a dinosaur rock, but I said to him to wait his father to help him so I hide it)
then i continue sleeping few moments later :"is my dinosaur here yet?' I awnser "let's ask your dad when he comes" and finally wake up.
Then Pauline 4, comes in the afternoon and just drops her yaws when seeing my hair "PIIINKKKK!"
Kids are cool ^^ Happy ones especially
Biyernes, Hulyo 10, 2009
Imagine
People say, or it has been said it's a jackpot to born in Finland
- Ok, I didn't born there but grew. I think in finnish and think I'm Finnish.
After watching the documentary of honor murders in Afghanistan, seen people really breaking their spine to earn their living - and long list things I wouldn't want to my every day life,
leaves only few problems to Finnish everyday life.. chemicals in our food and the assfrozing winter. *OH NOES*
I'm really thankful to live and study in Finland - be myself, know my rights and be free!
I really don't care about politics ( nor do understand anything of it) - but it upsets me when realizing that there's people not acting and treating each others in the level our brains are developed to.
When seeing modern Asian women shopping, wearing high heels and carrying their pride - I hope women in middle east will be in this point someday to! I saw the work done already(safety homes for women victims, taxis for women, women lawyers ..) and hear about the girls playing soccer in their burkhas, it makes me smile!
People shouldn't be whining about this traditional wear - but look up to theese women that show what they can do, fighting! (compare to: WE CAN DO IT! in western culture decades ago)
I'm proud to be a girl and want to be proud of others too!
- Ok, I didn't born there but grew. I think in finnish and think I'm Finnish.
After watching the documentary of honor murders in Afghanistan, seen people really breaking their spine to earn their living - and long list things I wouldn't want to my every day life,
leaves only few problems to Finnish everyday life.. chemicals in our food and the assfrozing winter. *OH NOES*
I'm really thankful to live and study in Finland - be myself, know my rights and be free!
I really don't care about politics ( nor do understand anything of it) - but it upsets me when realizing that there's people not acting and treating each others in the level our brains are developed to.
When seeing modern Asian women shopping, wearing high heels and carrying their pride - I hope women in middle east will be in this point someday to! I saw the work done already(safety homes for women victims, taxis for women, women lawyers ..) and hear about the girls playing soccer in their burkhas, it makes me smile!
People shouldn't be whining about this traditional wear - but look up to theese women that show what they can do, fighting! (compare to: WE CAN DO IT! in western culture decades ago)
I'm proud to be a girl and want to be proud of others too!
Huwebes, Hulyo 09, 2009
Huwebes, Hulyo 02, 2009
feeling sick
how come I get this sick this easily ;___; runny nose and temperature.. In winter twice, this spring twice one in germany.. When i was a kid it was like once in a 3 years!
Awkward moments that I hate, moments after you can't laugh.
(Like the moment when my curiosity about Iraq just overloaded in Shawn's car. He didn't seem to be angry but I shame myself * stupid me* )
Like the moment my father comes behind me reading my stuff I write to a support group board or not reading the exact stuff but peeking in what site am I.. There's things we still cant talk in our family and .. it feels okay but feeling angry and shamed after people come asking me what i'm doing .__.
I currently don't feel so happy with my parents - it pisses me off people calling me with my lil sis name, and mom saying that i want to look like my lil sister, or my parents forgeting what i do or well forget me anyway...
or my long time non-seen grandmom kinda pushing me on side because of my looks.
Maybe it's just that they are going a phase that should they care or not about what I'm doing.
Simply, not okay.
Awkward moments that I hate, moments after you can't laugh.
(Like the moment when my curiosity about Iraq just overloaded in Shawn's car. He didn't seem to be angry but I shame myself * stupid me* )
Like the moment my father comes behind me reading my stuff I write to a support group board or not reading the exact stuff but peeking in what site am I.. There's things we still cant talk in our family and .. it feels okay but feeling angry and shamed after people come asking me what i'm doing .__.
I currently don't feel so happy with my parents - it pisses me off people calling me with my lil sis name, and mom saying that i want to look like my lil sister, or my parents forgeting what i do or well forget me anyway...
or my long time non-seen grandmom kinda pushing me on side because of my looks.
Maybe it's just that they are going a phase that should they care or not about what I'm doing.
Simply, not okay.
Miyerkules, Hulyo 01, 2009
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