2009 Thanks giving

So we went for thanksgiving with my parents to sweden with bunch of other asianpeople :3


Me and my Dad, mom on cam

Bird nest

waiting for the train


Dogs in train<3

My new crush Cocacola light<3

My dad's snacks... 15boiled eggs...


Cinnamon apple chips

Cabin windows



Ginger bread cookies


My new pants

In Sweden the buildgs have ears :D

Calendar: 2nd-5th of April Allowed to Drink [x]

So I am going to BREAKPOINT 2010 !!! \o/ ..and with an entry or two..
Below some 2009 pictures


I re organized my home - theese pics are from the past style - forgive me the mess I decided to take pictures after already getting messy with changing places of thingsAbove: The wall of my alcove, I made it my working corner - and now there is more hats and collars!



above: upgrated the wall with yummy boxes


Sceneclub menu in the fridge BEEEEERUUUU:DD
Thinspiration: I need to get in shape - not loose weight but shape - getting chubby ._.

Chili sprouts!<3

Aleksi was dancing in a bar...

Finally got my Crazyfactory order!!<3
3x navel piercings
Hypno balls<3
5 x Tongue piercings
1x 4mm acrylic tunnel
2x 5mm acrylic tunnels ( I thin those seethrus are nice<3)
2x 6mm acrylic tunnels
and a colelction of 8mm tunnels <3 ( one negative thing: the tunnels with diamonds - the blings are different size..)

Not going to Germany but ..

.. still decided to make entries and jsut some one to present me there ^^

Ewan ko ba kung bakit type kita
Di ka naman guwapo kahit malabo ang pagpili ko -T.L. ako sa ‘yo

Panay kantiyaw pa nga ng utol ko
Dehins ka raw bagay sa kagandahan ko malabo nga ba raw ang mata ko at na-T.L. ako

Kalyeng liko-liko ang takbo ng isip ko
Sabi ng lolo may toyo ang utak ko sabi ng lola ay humanap ng iba
May porma’t mayaman, T.L. wala naman

Breakpoint 2010

So tomorrow I'll book my Helsinki- Frankfurt am Main tickets! \o/ Waiting so badly for Breakpoint! - Now I need to do a entry there ;P <3

Where the wild things are

( watched together with Aleksi "Where the wild things are" - Matt ( the guy who I met in NYC) was right, it was sad and really reminds of the hard childhood, it really helps you to understand the movie if you have read developmental psychology)

Men who save the face of other men
Today was the first day at school after the holidays. Went there first my face as a raisin but luckily targeted Samuli and had a nice talk with him before the first class started. I think he remembers what lessons I go to. He told me some sad things - I wanted to say something, but didn't know was it appropriate. Hope he's ok.

It's so depressing to notice how even a high school is full of basic-stupid people.
"is birch a deciduous tree?"

I love my workmates, the way they kinda nag about my men-issues :3 "Girl he is ugly!" "leave him, oh ... LEAVE HIM!"
Also as most of the workers are girls I never lock the toilet of the backroom - learned again that I should..

I met an anonym again at Kamppi. First "geek" with who I was comfortable in ages! ( he didn't make an issue about the social problems although he didn't have ones but geeks seem to always have and the fact of it makes me uncomfortable)
He let me play with his iPhone - and introduced it well and felt more easy to use than ever! Also I tried the game he had developed, I suck in games but it was fun.
The confusing feeling that you rrrrrreally enjoyed meeting someone, you just met.
Is it possible meeting some one with who you share an almoust alike imagination?
His conscientious called him back home.

Went to Sceneclub. Got my ear largeners, tongue and navel piercings!
Nosfe's artist room looks nearly ready, Naali avoided even looking on my direction and Kani tried to close up the akward silence by talking to me nice things. Kani is so super.

We went to I <3 food, to have pizzas with Aleksi- had very good customer service and the most delicious mozzarellapizza../w tomatoes!

The movie was sad. I knew immediately what it was about, and it made me recall the therapy sessions with Timo years ago. You might want to meet your feeling monsters and learn from them. I knew what it ment but it's nice that it has been made to a movie.
Loved the movie, characters, music and the visuals! Being honest, it made me cry.
The boy wearing a wolf-suit standing on a dinner table - then running, screaming and crawling.
People who have had rough childhoods. Having.
It made me feel again like theese couple last winters with Aleksi when we stayd in the theather seats long after the movie ended, sighing - no need for hurry we hate it.

Lately this life of mine haven't made sense at all, trying to catch and run after something that will come to you when it's time to be rewarded for being patient and waiting. After being nice.

..Years ago, he carried me to his home hundreds of meters - cause he found me lying in the streets dead-drunk like a sailor but in a dress. The sculptural dog Roma greeted me.
He carried me to bed and hesitetad should he come next to and put hands around me - he did and it was okay to cry. Oh how my mind was so black. Next morning he showed Tosca ( Tuska, when she was still a puppy just size of a hand)
me: "hah, lucky we are not friends with those", I frowned upon when some drunken soldiers
passed us.
A:"Yeah we have better friends!", he laughed back.
Friend. You are my bestfriend.

I need a warm touch. Missed my family ( and now I came to be over night at their place).
Missed especially my dad because of the movie.
He told me that me having a low body temperature is okay, actually it makes me help to recognize really warm people. I did earlier today, not sure is it a okay feeling to have - yet.
Dunno is it even alright to imagine things any futher.
Already went crazy with my bad temper and felt bad one night just because getting crazy with everything I feel and them being not in order or not making sense.

Realizing we you can feel the same, like a hand on your neck, but thinking very different things.

Mou Sukoshi

Dunno what this is.
Can't make jokes of my feelings anymore and now realized what this is all about.

Again it really doesn't matter, it's thru internet. But you can still be found of.
Now I'm crying.

No matter how open and straight you are there's still something what people wont understand.

Not sex - but someone to sleep with, some one who makes the bed make noises and "wave" by night, some one very warm. Someone who is able to sleep beside me.

Why to have two pillows in bed.

Rudy don't fail

I was in Xycling today - okay it made me sweat and set my feet on fire, but my butt and rest of the down-stair is such in a pain right now :DDDD
I like the gym here in Espoo more than the one in aleksanterinkatu .. it's more modern :P But hell, equally supergyms!

I think theres a posibility me having a fix to super tall guys and much olders too.
It makes me feel they are some kind of fairytale characters.
Well but no chance with them as no tall guy want this kind of a midget nor a older guy a girl who has born two decades later than him.
puff

Where a big sits

Yesterday I spent my day at work again nicely and being slightly hyper with the girls.
We are going to Amsterdam with a few co-workers and bosses at Vappu (1st of May) YAAAY!

The whole evening I sat in Cafe Kämp or Kämp Cafe ( whatev..) with a guy I met at Tuesday at Nosfes bday in Kaisla. Being honest I feared there would be nothing in common between us and we would suffer a hour of painful awkward silence. Happened that we sat there until midnight and even in the taxi to home we spoke about chilies :D So I had a nice time.
The place itself was .. pretty and preppy I could imagine to have a lolita meeting there! .. Really please understand me, I'm a poor student that goes to K-18 bars where's no service but puke in corners instead.
Even going to bathroom was kinda .. WOW.. First I saw a imagine of a big bull in a painting - and i felt lilea virgin lost in his labyrinth while trying to find the toilet.
Wow.
IRCed until 5am, slept and when I woke up I just lied inn bed petting Mimmi, sipping some strawberrysoup and watching that beautiful snowy weather<3

Today I clean-up and depending when he is going to pick up Mimmi, I go eat to my parents and then to Kisis with Mikko.

Haruko Momoi FINLAND LOVES YOU!!

I just read the news that Haruko Momoi (Known from Under17 and voiceacting) is coming to Desucon, to a animeevent held here in Fianland, Lahti (also I'm working there as a maid)

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I'M SO HAPPPYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Creating contradiction

So this January I'll start going to ballet :3 So I learn some body controll and get a straight back, also concentration is a feature what I'm lacking.
Also this summer I'll try Roller Derbying, need to order the skates ^____^
Exciting.
Boys, out of MY WAY!